Let your guard down to someone that you know could be gone with out warning?
Ego makes me feel so good about myself even when hes not around I hold my head up higher I'm not as afraid of looking at people around me I still am working on that but its getting better.
I'm able to talk to a guy first I can joke around I'm not as shy as I was 2 months ago.
When he looks at me all I can do is smile and I let my self look at him in the eyes I don't even do that with my family.
Next thrusday he could be sent to jail he goes to court that day and he isn't sure whats going to come out of it he is hoping for probation but he might not get out of it that simple.
He called me last night and told me he missed me he hadn't told me that since like this started and falling asleep on him last night listening to him breathe I could have stayed like that all night.
I have never been through anything like this it scares me not ready to let him get close though. He knows the basic stuff about me but nothing of importance he knows about my past guys (doesn't believe me) and that's about all. | 
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