No baby news. I am going to just make a doctor appointment Monday. Fuck peeing on all of these sticks. I have been coming down with more symptoms though.
Anemia. I am anemic, but the only time it "flares" or I notice is when I'm pregnant. I tend to get lightheaded and dizzy
Morning sickness-ish. I feel naseous at the moment. Loss of appetite. Foods I didn't have a problem with previously now makes me want to vomit.
Extreme fatigue, and minor headaches resulting.
Weight loss (always an issue with all of my kids)
A tiny bit of spotting
Mood swings. BAD ones. Like, I -am-going-to-rip-all-your-muthafuckin-heads-off type of moody.
I just feel so disoriented. It's disturbing
Still no period, still negative tests.
In OTHER news, David has now dubbed my two year old, "Super Baby". So now when Tyler does something, like throw his bowl on the floor, David announces, "Super Baby is full!" It's kind of cute, if I weren't so cranky. And fucking tired. This 'whatever' that my body is going through would be so much easier if I weren't busy as fuck.
I had all this shit to write about, and I totally forgot.
Oh! School! Did I write that David is registered? I can't remember, but he is! I'm stoked! Now, I have to talk to my babysitter about lowering the price of her services. I pay 120 a week for both kids. That was for forty hours a week. (She isn't licensed). Now I am going down to thirty hours a week, and David will be in school. I shouldn't be paying what I am paying. So, I don't know, 80? 90? The issue is, Daniel thinks I am paying 80/week. I didn't want to hear him bitch, but 120 was fair to me because she watches the kids early mornings, weekends, and at the drop of a hat if I need it. She volunteers to watch Tyler all the time, because carting a baby around is a pain in the ass. And he is in that throw everything stage (including tantrums!). All included in the price. I don't want to put her in a financial bind because I am the only one that pays her. Oh, and she cleans my house! But, Daniel doesn't know she watches the kids at the house. He hates people here, especially when I am not here. So, her watching the kids all day without me here will be a huge issue. But, in my defense I DO NOT want to be getting these kids up at 4 AM to carry them over there, and then they will be up all day. Plus, the drama of her roommates? I do not want my kids around at all. So, Daniel being pissed at me is going to be worth it, because the health and sanity of these kids not having fucked up schedules and being around chaos is so worth it to me. And nothing has come up missing. I'm just going to tell him when he gets here. I know he wont want to spend the two days he is here fighting with me, so he most likely won't make it much of an issue if I tell him right off the bat.
I can't write any more. My head hurts. I'm tired. I feel like I haven't slept in three days, and I had a four hour nap earlier. Night.
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