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I got in a fight with Nikki

08/22/2012

Ugh. I'm drained. Nothing physical, although she was threatening it. So it started with texts.

Nikki: Im moving on the 1st. Do u know when you were gonna be able to pay me the last of what u said u wud give me? Hate 2 ask but in a tite spot rite now. And Ive tried 2 call a couple times too. Why r u avoiding me? Grrr..

Me: For some reason I thought I quit on a Sunday. I was paying you for three days a week. My work week was mon, fri, sat. I quit sat. You are all paid up. I pay you for the week you work.

Then she calls me. She says she's going to come over tonight or tomorrow because I'm showing her a side of me she didn't know I had. What side? I don't owe you shit! So I tell her there's nothing to talk about, she is paid up, and I wanted to fire her long before this. And I hang up. At the end I was screaming in the phone. So then she starts texting me again.

Nikki: Is Daniel here? Is that y you've grown balls? Ive got pleanty I can fill him in on...remember?And you wanted to fire me?! Why is THAT?!

Ok, so she wants to tell Daniel I had her watching the kids here instead of at her house, and I was paying her $120 a week instead of $80.

Me:No he's not. Fill him in on whatever you want. I really don't care. YOU ARE PAID UP. Not only are you paid up, but you got paid on Friday for sleeping!! I don't want to hear any more of your crap. Do the math! You should have kept track of your pay! Dont get me wrong, you're GREAT with my kids. But along with you came too much drama. You would break my rules, like I didn't want DEZ here. No offense to her, but I DON'T KNOW HER! I was tired of finding shit chewed up from your dogs, even AFTER I banned them and told you to watch them. I never EVER docked you for the things they ruined. I never made a stink when Squirt bit David. I didn't throw a fit about Tyler being stung twice by wasps! I never said A DAMN THING about something always being out and you never even letting me know! I didn't bitch when you came over here and basically told me I used you. After the gifts, after trying to get you out of Tasha's, after listening to all the DRAMA, I used YOU?! THAT'S why I've been avoiding you. Now, be a big girl, and move on. I would never not pay money I didn't owe. You are PAID. THANK YOU.

Nikki: Im God...I control wasps. I'll survive, even without what U SAID U WUD GIVE ME! No wonder your friends always take off on u. Now I dnt wonder why.

Me: Nikki, why would I pay you what I don't owe you? And why would you even want money you aren't owed?! Fuckin leave me alone already

Nikki: Im not gonna do the txt war. Ive got unlimited mins but Im still wasting them with this pettiness.

Me: Consider it even with the baby monitors of mine you have. Have a good life! FYI if I find any of my shit out if place (IE my car etc.) I will call the cops! I know Tasha doesn't want any police interaction with DEZ there.

Nikki: Dez is leaving tomorrow! And idle threats dnt scare me! Im not a petty bitch...u shud know that. U crossd me out 4 $50...THATS PETTY!-

Me: I don't owe you $50! Saturday was the last day of the pay period! Not my fault you can't keep track.

And then I tell her just to come over. I go outside and she's sitting on the stoop. I can't even keep track of all that was said. I told her I didn't write her off for $50. I wrote her off cause she sat at my kitchen table and told me I used her. With the money I paid her, the little gifts on the side, the bullshit drama I listened to, and taking four fucking kids in to MY house, and I used her?! I told her sorry I told her I was going to give her $50, I was on three different painkillers, and I thought it was a completely different day than it actually was! She went on to call me a hypochondriac (yeah, because I complained ALL THE TIME I was sick!) and petty, a lowlife and that I paid her shit for taking care of aspecial needs child. (Talking about Tyler). I stood up right there and screamed, "GET THE FUCK OFF MY PROPERTY RIGHT NOW YOU FUCKING BITCH!!" Tyler just turned two. He doesn't speak a lot. Neither did his sister and she doesn't shut up now. She told me he is special needs because he throws himself on the ground while having a tantrum. Uhh, that's NORMAL! Holy shit! She said some really low down dirty shit. I never ONCE said shit about her and her past. Never. After a while of screaming at each other I finally said, "FINE! You want your fifty bucks?! Let me go to an ATM!" Then she says she doesn't want it. Then WTF are we fighting over?! Because she "wishes I were a better friend to her". Oh mother of god. I was a damn good friend to her. I got tired of all the drama she came along with. Finally, she left.

I didn't cry when she was here. But when I came downstairs I broke down. I can't believe what she said about my son, about Hannah (that no wonder why she took off on me) and just about my general character. Just really mean things. Oh, and she came over prepared to throw fists. Yeah, bitch, that's why when I walked outside you were sitting down. Whatever.

I called Daniel immediately and told him I lied. I let him know I was paying her $40 extra a week than he thought. That she was watching the kids here mostly. He's upset I lied, but he's not upset about what the lie was. He knows I never lie to him, and that it was killing me to not tell him the truth. I told him I wanted him to hear it from me, first hand.

It's sad all this is happening around me. It makes me second guess who I am. Am I the one starting the drama, not even knowing it? IS this all my fault? Is karma coming to get me, to give me what I deserve? No. This is what happens when I remove myself from bullshit. Bullshit swarms when you tell it goodbye. I know in my heart I am right, and I did what I have to do. I even offered her the money and she didn't want it. If she fucks with my car, then I'll take the necessary steps. Until then, relax. And after it all, she sent me this text: Even now, Im not your enemy.I truly considered myself ur friend,and thats not something I can just change.No matter how hurt I am.Good luck 2 u,in everything.

I think she's trying to mind fuck me. I called Verizon and blocked her and Natasha from contacting me. I really don't even think I need to worry about Tasha. She's too fucked up to care. I'm just watching out for Nikki, in case she decides to pull some shit. That's only till Monday, when Daniel gets home. So, that's the drama of the day. I hope it's all over. I feel no one is on my side. That's okay. I can stand alone.


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