He's SO full of it!!!!

10/01/2011

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So this conversation took place because I changed my status on the ps3 to say: "All Smiles ^_^"

Him: awwwwwwww y?
Me: sorry, multitasking lol cuz i'm talking to someone who's ALMOST as perfect as you... lol not quite, but almost lol
Him: hehe that's awesome
Me: yeah except that it's hard to go back and forth between the computer and the ps3 at the same time lol i think joe got mad cuz i was ignoring him and logged off and went to bed lol
Him: where you meet him?
Me: **********.com i hadn't even heard of it before until mathew told me about it... then mathew freaked me out and got deleted and blocked.... but i guess the site is a good thing lol
Him: indeed lol
Me: plus he's in michigan which is the HUGE plus cuz i am more than tired of sitting in this house not doing anything... lol
Him: understandable
Me: the weather finally got me though, i have the flu so i guess that's one thing not to smile about lol
Him: awwww i'm sorry
Me: i'm living on chicken noodle soup, vernor's and cough drops lol
Him: hugs wish i could help.... maybe i'll get on cam 4 u in a few
Me: i can't get on cam I look like i'm dying! lol
Him: me 2 lol
Me: you could not look bad if you tried! lol
Him: bs lol besides do u not wanna cum real hard?
Me: you couldn't! lol and yes... of course... i just don't wanna get on cam *pout*
Him: ok
Me: i'm sorry can we when i feel better? i would be totally distracted and feel awkward cuz i feel and look like hell right now
Him: yes hun it's ok i can wait till yr better... or i could just get on 4 yr enjoyment if u like
Me: awww you don't have to if you don't want to... i'm definitely not gonna turn down that offer though... lol if you do i promise i'll make it up to you when i feel better... i've been sick for days it can't possibly last that much longer....
Him: mine went 12 days
Me: omg noooooo i will just hope that i don't have what you had... i can't take 12 days of this
Him: lol it got better after 6
Me: i'm on 4 right now... so it can let up any time now lol


So then i hear nothing else from him for the rest of the night... and I was playing a bowling game with my friend and looked to see if he was still in a game, and he was just siting there, doing nothing... I was about to write him a message when he logged off.
So I texted him and said sorry i had bowling but i noticed he was just sitting there, had he been waiting for me... and he wrote back "nope" then I'm assuming he realized that maybe he sounded like an ass... so he sent another one that said he was bored
with the playstation and just figured he would go lay down. So I said "k just checking... sweet dreams" and didn't hear anything back... What, he thought he was going to punish me by just leaving and not getting on cam? Wrong, sorry.. i really wasn't in
the mood anyway... I would have watched him, because he's hot as hell, so why would i not? But either way was fine with me... I'm not the one who asked him to get on cam... I have the flu, I'm sick as hell and kinda miserable.. I didn't care one way or
the other if he got on cam or not... so that backfired on him... lol

Come on... seriously... he has basically ignored me for weeks now, except little 2 minute conversations.... and now all of a sudden because I mention I'm talking to another guy, he decides he wants to pay some attention to me??
That is not how it is going to work. I'm done letting him control me. Either he wants me or he doesn't, it's that damn simple... if he does, then he needs to do something about it before it's too late! If he doesn't, well then he can
just keep doing what he's doing now, because it pushes me further and further away every day... He can't possibly be that full of himself to think that I am just going to keep sitting here doing nothing, waiting for him. NO!
I've done it long enough, I'm done. He makes me miserable, he makes me hate myself, and I'm tired of it. I'm tired of feeling like I'm worthless just because I'm not good enough for him. Well, then fuck him, there are plenty of people
I AM good enough for... and if that is really what he thinks, then he doesn't deserve me anyway...