I can't believe how self-centered and unfeeling she is about the situation she's put us in. She wanted to talk but I said right now wasn't a good time, I have a deadline for school and Jon is very upset and he wants to calm down before talking and she snaps back with...."Very interesting...very interesting...nobody cares that I get upset" and stomps out my door. I'd love to stomp over to her house and just let her have it with all guns and no barriers down but I refuse to stoop to her level and besides, I have to get my homework done; I've neglected this class so much because of all the stress and drama she's cause, I'm just praying I'll be able to pass it. If it weren't for my exceptional team, I would be toast already. .....now to try to get back to focusing on school work...wish me luck 
those of you who pray, we could really really use loads and loads of prayers right now, I have a feeling that before this gets better it will get a lot worse. Jobs for me and Jon are desperately needed and housing that will accomodate our pets, too.
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I just got a series of texts from my Aunt Melody basically screaming at me for making mom upset and asking "What the hell is wrong with you and Jon". Accusing us of not thinking of mom, of not considering what she is going through and that we are going to cause her to have another stroke because we are causing her more stress.
Mom has everyone so wrapped up in her side of the story that no one, NOT ONE PERSON, has even bothered to call or email or ask us how things are for us, what we're going through, etc.
I don't know these people any more, they are not the family that they used to be, and I'm not the wimpy person getting walked all over either. I'm standing up for myself and mom is freaking out because she's not in control anymore and she doesn't care who or how she takes us down with her.
Yes, I'm upset, but dammit, this is a shit hole mess that she's created and now she's got them all blaming it on me and Jon. It's not right and I won't stand for it. Now I just have to figure out how to say something nice and pray that they will listen/read.
Regardless, pour on the prayers, I'm freaking out with school deadlines and all this falling in on top of me.
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