The last couple days, though I can't really think of anything extra that is wrong (it's always money and homework and the kiddo) and nothing really new is going on that I can remember, I am feeling myself start to sink into depression. Yesterday Jon kept asking me what was wrong and today he sat me down and asked if he'd done anything wrong, he was really worried about me cause I was really quiet and seemed to be walking around upset. Now honestly, I hadn't really paid attention, but now that I've been thinking about it, I have been having a lot of trouble the last few days keeping focused and thinking positive and just not been feeling happy but I don't know what is wrong. Tonight, it is feeling a lot worse and I'm really worried. I have some meds from last time that I'm going to try taking again but I don't even have any money to go the clinic, not that I could get an appointment for a month or more; our community health up here is really screwed up, or I have to go like 35 mins south to the main county clinic and it could still be a week or more, and I'm not going to the ER, they already stole my arm and leg for the spider bite trip which was worthless. Gotta get out of this funk somehow, got way to much to do and don't have time for this to happen right now. Just need 10 more days and then I can crash for 2 weeks until the next class starts. Feels a little better to write about it but not too much.
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