During my conversation with Jon throughout the night last night, I kept saying this, and while I felt horrible bad repeating it, it is the truth...I don't know what to do, I don't have any answers, I cannot see a way out of this mess, this trap, that I'm in, which I brought him into. And it SUCKS!!!!! I have a few things of value left that I haven't sold, mostly movies, vhs and some dvd's, but ebay was eating all my profits so I can't do that again. And I have lots of bins of clothes still so when the spring plus size sale comes around in March, I'm going to change the pricing on everything to lower prices so that things have a better chance of selling. For the fall sale, she allowed us to bring movies, both VHS and dvd's, in an attempt to see if they would sell. I had 40-50 and sold almost all of them. I have a few little pieces of jewlery left, though mostly costume, I think if I price them low enough I will be able to sell them. I know it sucks having to lower the prices to almost nothing, however, it is better to sell it and get something rather than hauling it all the way over there and then having to bring most of it home and store it again until the next sale, hoping that someone will buy it at the next one. I have some books that I might be able to sell too, but will have to dig them out of the boxes and see what condition they are in. Still trying to get my kids books project all done so I can try to sell or give those away too. I'm tempted to give up school, but I only have 3 more classes to finish my degree and to work so hard and stop now would be silly, plus, if I wait another two months then I'll have a little cash from my last pell grant and that will help with some things. I don't think I will get any tax return this year, since I cashed out the very last part of my remaining 401K, so I'll have to pay the penalty for that, and I may get charged for business, but I honestly don't think I even made enough for it to count, but will have to wait and see if I get any paperwork to file.
If I had a block of time that was consistent that I could go get any crappy part time job I would, but I cannot do that because mom's schedule varies, Jon's work schedule is all over the place, and the only time I would be available would be between 2am and 6 am, but that is the only time that I sleep, between the cat naps during the day. It's just not possible. And re-starting my home business isn't possible either, because with Jon working nights, he sleeps during the day and I can't have people calling me or me talking, etc. And then throw school into the mix and I really have no free time at all. It's just so frustrating.
The only thing I know how to do that I can manage is to crotchet, but I tried that and no one was even interested in my scarves or afghans or baby blankets, so that idea went out the window too.
I have a sewing machine that I don't know how to use, some fabric that I could start to make quilts with, but I have absolutely no room in my house to even think of beginning something like that, we're already cluttered too much as it is.
The one single thing that is a huge long shot, is to maybe try something with my collection of pictures. I don't know if a photo book or calender would work, but it's an idea that I've been thinking about for a long time and need to find some way of determining if that would be a viable option, if anyone would buy them?
what do you all think???
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