Do you ever have something that happens that stops you in your tracks and sends you into a reflective mood, wondering what might have happened or how you are going to manage in the future, or even if the path you are on right now is right? and then you start worrying, what if it's all wrong, what if it is all a mistake, or just how can I change or fix this cause it's not working right now? well, I just had one of those moments and I'm severely stressed and worried and depressed and second-guessing myself at this very moment. What if all this is a mistake, can I fix it, can I pick myself up and pull myself together. I'm tired and scared (not for my safety, just of the consequences of my decisions, if there are any) and worried and a whole mixture of emotions right now. I want to do so much more, I want to participate more, I want to just be more all around and I keep failing or it's not enough. Never enough, not for myself and not for anyone. How do I get over it, how do I fix it, how do stop it from happening? All I know is I'm plagued with lots of questions that I don't have answers to right now and it's not making things any easier or clearer. Some days life just really sucks royally.
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