it's been a while..

not a whole lot has changed.
i still work like a crazy person, never getting enough sleep or even enough time to just think.
however, i've had time to think the last couple days and it hasn't gone well.
i'm feeling so completely depressed. i don't even want to get out of bed.
i could really use Luke here right now. it's been too long.
i probably don't get to move this summer, which has been a huge downer.
Luke might be leaving again, which is even more sad.
i'm so over the marines. but it's onto the navy at the end of next year and who knows how that will be.

i've also been thinking a lot of the baby again..
i should be 6months pregnant, not on my period.
i'm not sure how i'm supposed to move on and i don't know who i'm supposed to talk to besides Luke.
i want to try again but that's not possible with 800 miles between us.

so i just continue to work my ass off and get fucked by my shitty job. i'm not sure how to move on or change anything. i've never felt more stuck in my life. i'm just pissed off.. at everything.