wow..long time.

06/24/2011

so its been a lil while since my last entry. really havnt found time or had energy to get on here and think & type at the same time. and recall things. lol about 2 weeks ago my bestests dad died from his battle with cancer. so ive been checkin on her as much as i can. shes doing ok. therapy was posponed for a few weeks due to overbooking and therapists vaca. saw her wednesday and she told me to start keeping a journal about my feelings and such in my life & go over it during sessions. oh joy. oh & i was diagnosed with a mood disorder. nothing fancy. lol.
bellas amazing! gettin big and becoming such a character! her sleeping has been sooo bad lately. its been killing me. but last night wasnt too bad. but it never seems to stay good. idk what to do. but shes still amazing! napping right now.
gary and i are doing...ok. he was off yesterday sowe went to breakfast with our neighbor friends and then we dropped off bella to my mom and went and hung out at home together. we watched kickass. and i took a lil rest while he played xbox. but we didnt fight. after we picked up bella we went grocery shopping. then went home for taco night. we were suppose to do s'mores but that never happened.
im also at an empass with my oldest dog mamas. shes gettin weird. somedays shes amazing and happy and awesome. but then all of a sudden she goes into her room(cage) and wont come out and growls n snarls. and shes does it to bella. ik shes garys dog but if it keeps up we gotta give her away. im not risking her hurting our daughter. our younger dog babii is great with bella & shes never everrr growled or show teeth in her 3 years of life. so if we must mamas will go to a friends and we will just have babii. breaks my heart but these are the decision you gotta make when it comes to your kids.
ok off to have some strawberries before dishes.
<3

**update**
forgot to say my friend kayla FINALLY texted me! her son is crawling now. major time has passed. but she wants to come over on monday(my birthday) & take bella & me to the park with her and c! so far my birthday plans are early lunch with mom, dad & brother. then park with kayla. and then once garys off work..who knows. lol
ok watching a movie. havin some mommy time.
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