I have once again come to terms with life and the deep hole was not only climbed out of, it was filled back in. I can finally get back on the warrior's path. I can focus on the things I want most. I am trying to have some sort of artist career, but I don't want to be refered to as "the starving artist..." well actually, I probably won't because I'm slightly over weight so I obviously am not even a little hungry. I want to be a tattoo artist, but it is really hard to work for free at first. You do not get paid for your apprenticship, but there was a guy that told me he charges 5,000 bucks to "train" you. Don't fall for that crap.
There are so many things I want to do with my life! I really can't decide what I should focus on.
And I want to write a book. Some kind of fantasy novel about pirates or something. I have it mapped out and I want to illustrate it too. I Love making jewelry with polymer, but my hands will be messed up from the clay. I love to paint. I want to paint all kinds of things! I had posted some for sale and some jewelry, but no one is buying it. I get a lot of good feedback, but for some reason no one wants to OWN it. I like to wear it, anyway.
I love yard sales. I want to go to every yard sale, EVER. I find odds and ends for crafts, toys to add to my vintage toy collection, and cool bottles. My grandfather always collected wierd things, like bottle caps, cards, coins, dice, keys.... my favorite was his awesome collection of glass bottles. Shaped like cars, guns, men on horses. Really cool. I think of him every time.
I am going to make a promise to myself to not take things for granted. I am going to be the best Mom I can be. I am going to dance more, and laugh out loud. I will be a hard worker and a good listener. With this, I will try to complete some goals I have for my future and my family's future.
Whew...I'm glad I came back from the dark side. That was a close one.