I am stuck in a battle within my own self. I am sure that this happens to a few of us many times through our lives. And that's where I am at this point in mine, and quite honestly I hate it. I am stuck between loving someone and walking away from him. I know that he isn't good for me yet I keep going back. I think it has to do with the way that when it is just us he can make me feel like I am the most important girl in the world. Then he decides to open his mouth and then that's when the trouble starts. He puts me down when he talks to other people about me, and makes me feel like I am no bigger than a bug when he talks to me. He showed up at my work yesterday with a white rose and a card, and he thought that it would make the whole situation better but it didn't. In all honesty it made it worse. I was mad that he thought a stupid little flower and a card was going to make everything better that has been going downhill since June...Ugh!
There is this other guy that has come into my life that has been in it before. Family situations caused him and I to walk away from each other. We were together when my parents were in the beginning stages of divorce and life was super hard for me. I was angry at anything that had legs and that could talk so pretty much everyone and everything. I took my anger out on him when i knew I shouldn't of. I have always been in love with him and he has always felt the same about me and the timing is always off. Well now it is right and we want to try and make it work.
So at the end of the day the decision doesn't seem so hard when it's written out in front of me...but its when i just think about it is when I have the battle within myself. I found the perfect song that describes what the situation is like with the first guy that I talked about. Listen to the lyrics it explains everything...
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