Well my week hasn't been too interesting...at all..to say the least! It really feels like my life is on repeat, im at that breaking point with it...I neeed to go back to college! I need to do something with my life that will make my daughter be really proud! I feel so lost, i feel like my husbands career alwayz has and most likely alwayz will become before mine. It's not fair...and it's really been making me upset...Im definitely going to be talking to Lewis about this when he calls...
Other than that things have been going good....I still watch Malek...him and Olivia get along like no other...He listens to every little thing she says! It's sooo funny/cute! He even plays barbies with her! haha=P
Living with my sister is still....welll....annoying! She just irritates tha FUCK out of me! Sometimes i just wanna drop kick her. When that feeling comes over me...i just head anywhere away from her...pretty much ignore the shit out of her til' i feel that shes okay to talk to.. Don't get me wrong i do let her know when shes made me annoyed, mad, upset....but shes so opinionated that she just doesn't know when to shut up. So i DO tell her, and put her in her place...I've made her cry actually a few times, she says "im mean". What she means by "mean" is that i ignored her and just let it be, prolly gave her a lil attitude, but thats it. Thats not mean in my eyes, not at all...i don't know how long this will last...we'll see once Lewis gets here on leave...
Olivia is doing pretty good. She's in this "NO" stage right now, I absolutely don't tolerate that word being said to me by any child....especially my own. So i do spank her, and put her in time out for 5 mins. Its calmed down alot, but she will say it from time to time when she really thinks she needs something. Im working on it. She is doing amazing with her abc...she can say and pick out every letter of tha alphabet, and the same with numbers 1-11....but she can count to 15. She knows all her colors....Im so proud of her...She's going to be soo happy/excited once shes in pre-school this fall! I can't wait to see that! This coming week she's going to start dancing...she's gonna love it!=)
On to me...Im doing alright....im just dealing right now. Im not happy, sad, upset, depressed. Im just okay with dealing with everything right now. This life is hard...really hard. I do keep myself occupied though, i workout, go for walks, watch movies, Olivia and malek together really occupy me...I find things to do with them alll the time! Tomorrow we are going to see Hotel for Dogs...Olivia does good in movies, but malek has been to a movie...so we'll see how that goes...he is 4 though, so im sure he'll do okay, especially with some popcorn! lol.
Well there's my lil update...Hope yall have a good weekend!
Sara Lemons
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