So I called my Doc office this afternoon, and they told me to go to the ER. So i did that...sat in the waiting area for 3 hours...i was there from 2-6 something. Found out that i had a misscarriage. Well it's called a spontaneous misscarriage. Im devasted. I jus kinda don't wanna believe it. I jus felt it kick like crazy 2 days ago, and now nothing? We were completely ready to have another child, Olivia was soo excited and now thats all gone. It hurts. But i can't change anything so im trying to stay positive and know that we will be trying again as soon as the Dr says we can. Lewis is in Alabama training so that makes it a little harder for me. He talked to his higher up and he will be getting to come home tomorrow instead of sat. so thats a plus. His mom is also gonna be coming here thursday, don't really know why. Im strong and i never really like to depend on anyone to get thru tough times. She says so she can talk to Olivia about it. Well i already have, thats what mommy's do, but whatever. Olivia cried a little bit....she doesn't completely understand, which is a given. I asked her about 15 mins ago if she was still sad...and she said "well not so much anymore, i cheered myself up mama" i was like "thats good baby" She goes "mama did u cheer urself up" it was cute although it made me cry more. I'll be okay...jus gotta keep positive things and people around me.
Sara Lemons
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