Useless

Okay, so I have been extremely useless in updating this thing, I think I just find it hard to write about the things that happen in my life and how I feel about it. I mean while at the moment my life is on the back burner, I still have some stuff to mention. I have officially completed my university course and in October I will be graduating with a 2:1 BA honours in Criminology. Firstly I never would have dreamed that I would achieve a 2:1, all the stressing out and potential thoughts of giving up aside, I honestly would have been happy with a 2:2 or a 3rd. So I am very pleased about that. I only wish my grandad could have been here to hear the news, since he was the one that ultimately kept me going on the course, he was so proud that I went to university, he saw me off, he helped me unpack, he picked me up on his way through from work if he was near to take me home, took me out for dinner at a local pub if he was in the city, and yet for my last semester, the most important one, he was not there and instead of being there in person to see me graduate I have to settle with his memory and his spirit. Secondly, who the hell graduates in october? It is ridiculous! Everyone else has either had their ceremony or will be having it very soon!!! Not that I am eager for it, I mean I am going to look like a freaking extra out of harry bloody potter, walking around in silly robes and a hat. guh.

Anyways, at the moment I fail in looking for a job, I swear my mum has done more then I have in that department, due to the public sector having freezes in recruitment for two years I cannot apply for the police force, which I find lucky as I didn;t fancy applying straight away. However my dad raised an interesting point that I may find probation an interesting avenue to go down and my mum just happens to know someone in that area. After chasing them up (told you she was doing more then me) She managed to find numbers and such like, however due to freezes (yup) they suggested I volunteer and see how I find it and then that at least gets me a foot in the door.

So much going on, I feel so drained and the whole aspect of becoming an adult and making my way in the world is become a vast nightmare.

Speaking of nightmares I'm thinking about starting a dream diary, I'm useless at keeping an 'awake' diary but since I have really weird but interesting dreams, I think keeping a diary of them and my thoughts about them really interesting.....