I know I've already written today but just shut up and don't judge I feel like ranting. I've been so tired of life lately, I'm tired of the nagging, I've just want to curl up and bawl my eyes out, mostly because ITS back the OCD is more intense then ever, and I have the most crap compulsions ever,
and the shrink is just making everything worse by asking me the most idiot questions. I know her she is trying to help but SHE ISN'T. On top of that I've been failing so terribly in school lately, and I'm homeschooled so my parents are on me ALL THE TIME calling me lazy and shit they just don't understand how hard I actually try they do that with my OCD too they act like I do it all purposely NEWS FLASH I DON'T EVEN FULLY UNDERSTAND IT! No matter how many times I explain it. It pisses me off so much I could just spit its mostly my Dad. My Dad gets pissed over the most ridiculous things and ruins any fun that Me and my family could possibly have I just don't understand what the hell his problem has been. Isn't it sad when you dread your Dad coming home from work?
Almost every time he opens his mouth I have to leave or I will lose my mind.
But hey thats life.
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