didn't wanna be your ghost.

04/29/2014

didn't wanna be anyone's ghost.

you guys, where does the time go?
for some reason, i feel like i cannot part with this site.
even though, i'm down to checking it once every three or four months.
i guess i like you guys too much.

why did no one tell me that the national was so amazing.
i'm actually, really mad at myself for living so long
& not knowing how great they are.
i've been laying on the floor in the dark.
just letting the record repeat itself.
and it's so nice. and therapeutic.
but i'm sure my neighbors actually hate me for it.

i thought i would post my birthday goals here again.
last year, i was way too ambitious.
but this year. this year is amazing.
and these goals are so great,
that i actually look forward to crossing them off.

27 before 28

1. finish the friendship quilt
2. knit a sweater
3. finish knitting my blanket
4. get my licence
5. go to paris
6. do the candy thing
7. go on a road trip
8. use up all of my vacation(3 weeks)
9. sew a piece of clothing
10. paint my kitchen
11. see 10 concerts (one down but so many coming soon)
12. go on maid of the mist - this closed, so need a new goal
13. go to the top of the CN tower
14. give up social media for lent.
15. get a tattoo
16. ride all the rollercoasters in one day
17. canoe in the bay
18. skate at the bayfront (ice & roller)
19. try 27 new recipes (12 down, 15 to go)
20. read one book per month (so far, right on track)
21. have a bonfire on the beach
22. volunteer at the rock once a month (five for five)
23. develop all the rolls of film
24. develop a fitness routine for at least once a week (lacking, but trying)
25. cook at least two meals at home, every week
26. try a new hair style
27. get baptized


now that i crossed those off, it doesn't feel like i've done that many.
but i guess, alot of them will get crossed of pretty quickly soon enough.
going on a road trip to baltimore in a couple of weeks.
get to see ellika & becky & aj one last time before they move to texas for good.
i'll still get to see them in texas,
its just longer to go.

what else?
remember that barista i had a crush on?
we've been hanging out, but it's actually so bad for me.
he's polyamorous.
before we all freak out.
not the same as polygamous.
basically, he just has multiple relationships.
and i know this makes me one of the worst people alive.
but, his girlfriend does it too.
and i know this is not sustainable for me.
and i know that he is clearly, not mr. right.
but for some reason.
i just can't let it go.
it's going to kill me.
it basically already is.
but, that's where i'm at.
diaries are for confessions.
and that's mine.

otherwise.
the candy business was making rapid progress.
and then i hit a brick wall.
but, hopefully, i should have a kitchen space in the next couple of months.

i'm booking plane tickets to paris on saturday.
i'm going with my mother.
& it's going to be a challenge.
but also, i think. super lovely.

today is rainy.
& it feels good for my soul.

until next time,

-a