Cody is a dick. So we have been emailing each other on gaggle. David, his best friend, overheard me talking to Felicia so then Cody found out that I liked him. And then I told him I liked walmart-sexy-fuck and then finally I just admitted to Cody that I liked him. And you know what he says?
Haha k.
Haha k?
Haha K??!!!
So I told Felicia and she yelled at Cody for me. (: So when he said that I completely just STOPPED liking him. All of the feelings like went down the drain. Which obviously means that I was never in love with him.
So this weekend there was a sleepover and then bible quizzing on the church. Which also includes a 4 hour drive.
I was excited from Wednesday about me and Matt becoming closer..... (:
So on friday Matt gets there looking for me. I was in the bathroom washing my hands. When I just hear him yelling Courtney, where is she?, she didnt come?
i was like yeeee boi me and him are going to cuddle and flirt all weekend.
At first he was like flirting with me, and it was like nothing. Because we really didnt have a chance because Joby, Pastor, and Amanda combined=no FLIRTING or looking at guys lol.
So I was definitely having the crush signs. "I wonder if he is looking at me." "Lets do this so he talks to me." "Oh no dont look at him or he is going to know that you are looking at him"
Yeah, I had the crush signs.
So Matt sat on my lap (: And then he slapped my ass. Hehe though I did like it. He was just mhhhhh na na na.
So that was all we got. Nothin else because there was adults up our asses the whole mother fucking weekend.
I hardly talked to Cody and when he would talk to me I would not even look him in the eye. I avoided him. And finally he asks me why I am ignoring him. I was not ignoring him but when you are trying to get over someone you can not be flirting and all up their asses.
The next morning was h.e.l.l. I had to wake up at 4, I looked like shit, and Matt was going to sit next to me on the bus but Pastor made me move and it was hard to communicate.
At the quizzing I did get to sit next to Matt, he playfully tucked my hair, I playfully tucked his back but that was it! I was like seriously? How gay!
And David was for sure showing me the crush signs. I was like seriously man? Me and your older brother had a thing. When you flirt with me it reminds me of your brother up my ass for my ass.
Matt told me David said he had a crush on me and he wanted to do stuff with me in playland at burger king.
Anyways.
So on the bus I decided to stare at people and see how long it would take for them to stare back. Which lead to a staring contest. Which lead to a staring contest between me and matt. We went on for probably like 3 hours. It was fun though (: We talked, we put our noses together, we just had fun. It was cute. Everyone was all like ooohhh they just want to look at each other. Which in my case was true, but I dont know about him haha. Then we were listening to music. And Cody was being a stupid douche. Are you mad at me? Are you? You havent talked to me this whole trip.
Matt and I were really getting close. Then Cody goes, Matt wants to kiss you. I was like (:. But I knew that Cody was making things up. Then Matt asked me what Cody said and I told him that Cody said he wanted to kiss me. Matt was like I do and I will at the church. I started getting butterflies and a little nervous (:
Then Cody left me and Matt alone on the bus. Matt was sitting in behind me, I turned around and we were listening to music. I rested my hand on Matts arms hoping we would cuddle. Then I sat up and we ended up holding hands. (: It was soooo nice. I love holding hands.
Then Amber left us alone so we were like completely alone. And we talked and I really enjoyed it.
Finally we got in the church and I was like shit. There is no way we are going to be able to make out. There was like 10 cars there picking up their kids. But Matt tapped me and told me to follow him. I followed him, I was a little nervous but it came out naturally.
Matt pulled me close and it was unexpected. We were in the Church basement. I dont think anyone was there. He like hugged me and started kissing me. I felt tongue. I freaked out and panicked because I dont really know how to make out. I only made out once and I was drunk...
I opened my eyes lol. His eyes were closed, I am glad. I just was like I hope I am doing okay I hope I am doing okay. We kind of pushed each other around and it was getting intense. I dont know if it was from him or me. I pulled away and I was like I only drunk made out. And he was like really? And smiled. Then went back to kissing. I pulled away again and was like yeah lets just normal kiss for now. He kissed me on the lips and added a little more tongue. Then we stopped. I told him I had to go and he was like yeah I have to go to the bathroom. And then I left.
It was amazing and weird but I loved it. He is soooo cute. (:
Did I mention Matt has a girlfriend?
hehe.
I would never date him.
I just love to have fun. (:
Im scared Cody dared him :/
Im also scared it is going to be weird the next time I see him. |
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