I wish that guys were more like girls as in actually caring about someone. I am sure that guys might have some kind of heart. But I am seeing that is so not true.
I just want my soulmate now, I do not want to wait. And then I think what if I dont have one? I am so troubling with guys it is not even funny.
So Matt has completly not even but any consideration into the fact that me and him made out. And he broke up with his girlfriend and I was hoping that I would have a chance but he is with this other stupid little bitch that I am going to kill one day, not because of Matt but because she seriously is a bitch and I got in a huge verbal fight with her at the football game.
Sooo, yeah. I have not seen Matt since our makeout.I talked to him on facebook once, I texted him once, and it was pointless so I gave up. And I was the one who talked to him on facebook, he didnt talk to me. And as for the texting thing, he never talks to me.
Gayy. I am going to become more ike guyss, not giving a shit.
enough!
Okay so yesterday we had a dance and it was pretty sweet. It was a Sadies Hawkins Dance. (: And we had black lights, this strobe type lights, and everything was neon! I love to dance even though I bet I look like a fag. Good thing to know is that I am never going to actually be able to witness how stupid I look.
I wish that Matt was there so I coud grind on him. He went to the rollerrink were all the middle schoolers and some high schoolers hang out. Well I would have grinded on him but I couldnt because he wasnt there!
After the dance we go to Ambers, me, lynn, and kianna. We go to lynns house and feel up a waterbottle with hard liquor. And slowly drink it. I am always the first one to get drunk. And the next thing I know I am dancing to music with lynn and falling everywhere.
I was crying over stupid little things! Like Ambers cat was TALKING and saying her first and last name!!!!!!! NO FUCKING JOKE. I start bawling my eyes out, but the sad thing was, I wasnt drunk at that time.
So we had fun. I didnt get told to shut up like I usually do, and I had a blast. Lynn had her little boy toys come over, hot seniors, let me tell you. And I am of course acting stupid as hell. Well Matt, isnt it funny how me and lynn like the guys with the same names?, was like OMG I know you your in my art class! i thought you were all quiet omg I am going to give you so much shit on monday?"
I am sitting there mumbling back to him with a needle hanging out of my mouth, attempting to pierce my lip.
They left and told us they got pulled over and me and lynn were bawling for 10 minutes straight.
All it all it was a fun night. (:
And then this morning amber lets me and lynn take her car. I am half drunk driving, dont have a liscense, and it was veryyyyyy fun. (: I CANT WAIT.
I was like purposely driving on the wrong side of the road to scare lynn and i almost hit the kingsford school bahaha. We drove around for like 2 hours. And it was awesome.
Soo yeah,
i am content with life right now. (: |
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