THE CHALLENGE!!! DAY 1

 I was doing this at OD but I figured I might as well do it here and maybe get all the way thru it LOL.

DAY 1

here's a pretty recent pic of me i think it's like a week or two old. .

don't mind my messy hair I was in the middle of getting ready in the morning.. hence the fact i'm still in my pj shirt....

15 facts..

1. My dvr is always at LEAST 75% full... i hardly ever watch LIVE tv.. i actually think i am a DVRaholic LOL.. i'm obsessed

2. I hate when my face feels oily.. i hated the humidity in FLA!! my skin is oily as is it and it drives me crazy!!!! 

3. On the opposite end I hate when the rest of my skin (everything but my face) feels dry.. i need lotion on me at all times.. if i am somewhere and run out I will go buy some... i also carry deodorant and chapstick always and body spray..

4. I have a extremely hard time eating in front of people until i have known them for awhile. this makes first few dates hard since people usually want to go to dinner. I tend to be the girl that 'pushes food around' the plate. It literally gives me a panic attack and i start to sweat I get that nervous. I think the person is watching me and thinking what a gross disgusting, pig I am. I know this has to do with years of a fucked up relationship with food and eating disorders. In reality I doubt most people are watching me eat..

5. I hate my nose.. my hands and my feet..and well probably everything else on my body.. but you know those just jump out.. i have man hands and feet.. lol and well the nose is well DUH!!

6. I could of very easily went through life without being a mother. I suppose you are not suppose to say that once you are a mother. But i am not one of those people who are going to sit around and act like my son is the second coming of christ. No everything he does is not wonderful , every art project he does is not something that should be in a museum and every sport he plays he is not good enough to go pro at!! Altho his smile with out a doubt does light up well probably the whole world. He has my annoying , sarcastic  in your face sense of humor. He has my energy times TEN. And he is evil and hilarious at the same time. So although I may not have been meant to be a mother... God sure gave me the perfect child.

7. I have 9 tattoo's including on that took my about 9 hours to get that i got all in one day and of those 9 two were covering up other tattoo's.. I also had my tongue pierced 5 times.. i had two rings in there at one time.. i miss it..

8. I have been seeing someone off and on that is in jail for the past 5 yrs.. we are more good friends then anything, but i do love him. not in love, but i love him.

9. I consider my brother (who is technically my half brother but i really never ever think of him as that) to be one of my best friends.. he's 16

10. one of the tattoo's i covered was half of a best friend thing that i had with a girl i was best friends with for 15 yrs... she now has a daughter who just turned one who i have yet to meet..

11. sometimes.. I miss being Dee Dee the girl with the double D's even if that was all I was to people.. i know i should want to be more then just the girl who had the boobs but there are some days i really don't give a fuck and would give anything to go back to being that girl.

12. I hate seafood.

13. Somedays i just think being a lesbian would be easier.. but then again i can't stand women...

14. I went to middle school with Eliza Dushku.. we were friends but i was mean to her alot.. cuz well i'm a bitch

15. speaking of Eliza.. i love the show Buffy the vampire slayer.. LOL!!!