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/goner.'s Diary
by /goner.

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Hi.

06/23/2010

Most of the things in my diary are going to be about my past. My therapist wants me to write down everything. He said a journal. But I don't want to risk somebody reading it. He said that he doesn't have to read it. So I am going to contribute to my "well-being" by writing my past down. Getting it out.
I am 17. I was a runaway for about two years. Then after I could not take it anymore, I came home in April. My father was not angry like I thought he would be, he was crying. My brother hugged me until I couldn't breathe. And my mother was probably smiling down on us. A big happy reunion. Expect, they didn't realize at that moment that I was emotionally gone. I couldn't smile like I used to.
I lost my education. I am stupid.
You see, I never really had much friends. I was depressed a lot. When my mom died I stopped caring, I stopped eating, I got in with the wrong crowd, I did a lot of drugs, I drank a lot, I had sex with any guy that wanted me. I was easy. I am surprised I do not have some sort of STD.
His name is Micheal, Micheal changed my life. Micheal is now 20. He was older. He was hot, he had a job, he dropped out of school, he had his own car. He was everything that could get me out of here. I planned it for years. Micheal wanted to move to California, he wanted me to have his babies, but he was not wanting around for me, as he said. He had money saved up. So one night in July, we waited until my dad was out of town. I left a note that said, "I am safe, I will miss you guys, don't come looking for me." I packed up, and we left.
It was hell. At first, it felt right. But Micheal ended up leaving me. I made new friends. I lost respect for everyone. I was abused. I starved. I never would repeat that experience.

My name is Kelsey.
I am 17.
I now a bunch of mental disorders.
I have no friends.
My brother is now my best friend.
My dad actually loves me now.
I am trying to let go of the past.

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Welcome to bloop. I hope writing everything out ends up helping you.

[photobooth.|0 likes] [|reply]

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[Bloop Help DeskStar|0 likes] [|reply]

Wow. What a story. And what a testimony you'll have when you pull through this. Just remember that God is on your side & you're never alone. It may not feel like that right now, but He loves you and cares for you. Put your strength in Him, and trust Him, and He will pull you through.

I'm here to talk if you need it.

[iWRITE|0 likes] [|reply]

welcome, i hope this diary helps you

[MaMa tO 2 MiRacLeSStar|0 likes] [|reply]

I'm glad that you have a better bond with your dad and brother, but it's a shame you had to deal with that so early. I hope that this helps you out--we have some fun people around. Lots of different experiences. Good luck!

[Cha-cha Δes.Star|0 likes] [|reply]

Church is great, but it's the personal relationship with Him that will help you best. Daily prayer, daily reading of His word. Surround yourself with Godly, righteous people. But most of all: believe in truth, seek it out, and follow it.

We all have the capacity to make it through whatever life throws at us, or whatever choices we make. Whatever life brings you to, god will give you what it takes to pull you through.

How are you doing?

[iWRITE|0 likes] [|reply]

welcome to bloop

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