Ahhh, so what has been going on? What hasn't been going on?
Ryan and I are officially done doing whatever it was we were trying. He thinks I'm emotionally immature and act like a little girl sometimes; I think he acts like an asshole sometimes. I don't want to be with a person who thinks that I'm emotionally immature, period. Someone needed to make a move so I packed all my shit, left his keys, and left. Things have been really lonely, but I suppose that comes naturally after you've been attached to a person for the past two years and haven't spent time on other relationships. It blows, honestly.
I've chilled with a couple people (it's only been like two or three weeks since we broke up) and that's been nice, but I guess I just don't care enough to work on a real relationship. So... I'm moving back to AZ for the summer and possibly for school. I applied at Prescott College and NAU, so hopefully one of them will recognize my merit and good-student-ness and allow me to continue this goddamned college career. If that's not the case it looks like I'll be taking some time off to recuperate and make some further decisions about my future. I would really like to go to PC because it's the liberal of liberal schools in AZ and I could really benefit from that environment. If NAU ends up being my destination, though, I would not be completely distraught. It's at least closer to home and I know a few people around its campus.
I think it will be good for the whole moving on process to get away from this part of the country if Ryan is going to remain here for another year. I needed to do something for myself, and I really hope this plan works out. In any case I hope I don't bomb the last few weeks up here so I'm still eligible for lots and lots of money from PC. Mwhaha
I have a job offer back home for at least the summer, which is great. I might even have another one, but we'll see. It's just so refreshing to have connections! WA just wasn't right for now. I need liberal in my life; something this school is failing miserably at offering me. AND they're fucking me in the ass with tuition, which sucks because I would totally be fine with completing school up here if they would only help me out a mite. So it goes.
Recently have re-fallen in love with Belá Fleck and the Flecktones. So good. So good. AND Firefly. Because Firefly is the greatest show ever. If Fox hadn't cancelled it history would be completely different.
Um... nothing else. I'm so ready to sweat balls this summer it's not even funny.
I miss my devil cat...