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Ellie's Diary
by Ellie

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More insomniac babble

07/13/2010



Can't Sleep


So, yeah, insomnia sucks. A lot.

It is Five in the Fucking morning.
And I am awake.
And my kids get up around 6:30, so, really, what's the point now?
*grump!!*

Yesterday was a good day. Kids were pretty well behaved, got quite a bit done....Found out why the jewlery I ordered isn't here yet. My effing cute boyfriend called me when he knew I was tied up...which was mildly irritating til I listened to the voicemail, a song (lyrics at the bottom of the entry). He's such a damn doll. Funny how tough he thinks he tries to be. Silly boy. haha. Fucking love him.

Lots to do this week. The shipments should be coming in to get us ready for the Tev-Tropin and once I have all three packages, I call the home nurse and she will come teach me how to do the shots. Nervous. Eek. I'm really dreading this..the closer it gets the more it scares me. I keep wondering if it's too late to change my mind. I know changing my mind really isn't an option, this is something that she NEEDS, but god. I'm terrified. Everyone, since I was pregnant with her, has told me constantly, that God only gives you what you can handle. But I can't help but wonder if he is seriously over estimating my abilities here. It's...I feel like I'm drowning. On a daily basis.

I miss my Dad...I always miss my Dad, but lately, it's felt a lot sharper. I think it's because of what a great relationship that Kyle and his Dad have, and he just told his family that, yanno, we're getting pretty serious...they knew he was seeing someone, didn't know details....He told me when we first started dating that he wouldn't introduce his parents to someone he couldn't see himself settling down with, due to previous circumstances, and he made a comment the other day about taking me home with him for either Thanksgiving or Christmas. He's made a couple marriage comments recently. Guess he's really not going anywhere. It's...good to know where we stand with each other. God I miss my Dad though. Maybe it's that I wish I could introduce Kyle to my Dad. I really thihnk my Dad woudl like him, approve of him...be happy about this, happy for me. God, he hated my ex with a passion. But...I think he would be thrilled for me now. I really, really do. And I wish that Kyle could meet him for the importance he had in my life. It really makes me kinda sad. Ok, very.

Anyways...I'm going to go put some biscuits in the oven....at this point, I'm just going to skip bed tonight and stay up, so, I might as well make a super awesome breakfast.

Just realized instead of the words, I could snag it off youtube and get the song AND the lyrics...I gotta admit, this is a voicemail that I definetely saved.








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I love that song..that is so cute.

Maybe you need a doctors trip for your insomniac problem!! I had to do that now I'm on some meds that help me relax and ease into sleep.

[.Jess|0 likes] [|reply]

Hmmmm, I've always thought his voice sounded weird on that song. Like the production was never finished or something. The sentiment of the song was awesome though.

So, did you get a chance to hear the new NIGHTMARE song yet? I'm curious to hear your opinion of it...

[Music God Of BloopStar|0 likes] [|reply]

RYC: Exactly. The sound is just so much BIGGER now. Rev actually WROTE the drum parts before his death...he just didn't get to PLAY them. the great thing is, Mike basically is playing EXACTLY what Rev wrote...just in HIS style, which is a much faster, heavier style. He uses a HUGE drum kit where Rev's was more of a basic kit. The reason they asked Mike to play is because he was Rev's "Idol" basically. He did it as a memorial so to speak. He is NOT going to be the full time drummer though. Not sure what they are gonna do in regards to that after the tour.

[Music God Of BloopStar|0 likes] [|reply]

RYC: I know, right? And there truly isn't a BETTER guy to have as a drumming idol. If you've never heard Dream Theater, you should check them out. Mike is an absolute BEAST! The entire band is in fact.

And yeah, he basically said he's just taking the "hired" gun role. He's not trying to replace Rev, just make sure that his music is played with the power and precision it rightfully deserved.

[Music God Of BloopStar|0 likes] [|reply]

RYC: Well damn, that's too bad. DT is still one of my favorite bands. Sorry to hear that something ruined it for you.

And yeah, it will be interesting to see. I know there are a couple people I wouldn't mind seeing step into the role. The MAIN one for me honestly...is Joey Jordison. Now that Slipknot is pretty much guarenteed to be a dead deal...I think Joey's power and vision would be an amazing addition to the band.

[Music God Of BloopStar|0 likes] [|reply]

RYC: I hate to see Slipknot die out as well but like you, I just can't see them replacing Paul, especially considering they were already talking about ending 'Knot anyhow. I agree that Corey is one of the greatest voices. They are definitely powerhouses individually.

Joey would definitely bring a new element to A7X, it's just a question of if he would fit personality wise. Either way, I hope that BOTH bands take their time and find the RIGHT person.

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