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don't know what to title this... | 04/07/2009 |
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spring break...age
friday night was spent with my sister, sarah, and nick. we watched jim gaffigan's stand up (the 5th time for me) and smoked a lot of pot.
saturday i got a pedicure with my mom and sister and went to beerfest. we smoked $110 worth of pot from 6pm-5am between 6 people. ittttttt was ridiculous. i had 5 beers then played 9 games of flipcup so thats about idk 8 beers? i won beerfest btw :]
sunday was dedicated to recovery and nick. we really have gotten much closer. i love that hes not afraid to tell me how he feels about me.
tonight i finished my history paper and nick told me that he fell in love with me the night of the tent. OH HOW I WISH MY OLD DIARY WAS STILL ALIVE. cause the 5th entry was about the night in the tent and the 6th entry was about "i think im in love with nick...".
wow how time flies by. we have been in love with each other for two years. he hasn't been or thought about another girl in two years. i dated dave and joey.
i feel like i've wasted my past two years, but i never knew how he felt. yeahhhh he said "he liked me a lot" last year cause he was afraid of hurting his best freind (who is also my best friend) cause SHE WAS ALSO IN LOVE WITH HIM.
so fucking compliciated.
he told me if he could go back he would've dated me at 13 and never looked back. hahaha. he said i always acted like i didn't have interest in him (and i did that so he couldn't possibly hurt me). we suck at showing our emotions to each other.
wow.
he just spilled his heart to me tonight and i spilled mine to his. its crazy how much we lvoed each other, yet it was always unspoken.
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 megan (bday girl) & me @beerfest |
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i know. it really sucks that he has to do it, but he can get his GED, and I think I am going to drop this semester too.. so it will be fine. we will work it out together. at least now his crazy ass parents are going to be out of it.
for over a year i've been going "you and nick are meant to be together" and i was so right. i'm glad i stuck with you all this time to see it finally come together. love you =).