comforting lie

except for a few bathroom/drink/smoke trips, i really didn't get out of bed until five pm.  which is incredibly late, even by my standards.  it's because of this that i decided to go talk to doug --the general manager at my old job-- tomorrow, a trip i'd originally planned to make this weekend, had i not found a new job before then.

i reaaaaaaaaaally don't want to go back, man.

but it's getting to the point that,

if i don't have a job ASAP

i'm not going to be able to make my next tuition payment.

& fuck. that.

so i guess i'm going back. keep your fingers crossed, mon amis, i really hope they have a job open.

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with any luck, my cousin meli will be getting her license tomorrow! i let her drive my car today and i was very impressed with how she handled herself. i'm usually pretty darn skiddish about this sort of thing, so how calm i was is a testament to how good of a driver she is.

i also let her and veronica take my car to go get their nails done today. they rewarded me with a cheesy bacon potato burrito from taco bell. <3 <3 <3

i honestly don't care how long they're staying here. if they keep buying me food, they can really just do whatever they want.

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saw aaron today. first time in a few days -- he's been busy with his kids and, honestly, i'm glad to have a break from him.

so what did we free-spirited lads do?

we went to the liquor store.
and then he used me to get some weed for some bimbo he was trying to score with.

i really wish i didn't know that.
i guess
while we're wishing,
i really wish he had found someone else to get a ride from.

good god, i'm tired of feeling like this.

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i also went back on a promise i made myself

but i can't really seem to find the energy to care.

being fucked up was the best part of my day.

-derrick