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The circle is now complete
by OKSoNowImAngry

Few ground rules first:

  • No names here. Handles, nicknames, and the like are fine. But no real-world meatspace names. Ever. 
  • This is MY house. I'm setting it up so that I have a safe place to vent my spleen. This isn't likely to be particularly interesting to most, so I'll take no offense if you just keep on keepin' on.
  • IF you feel like you simply MUST comment on something, don't be stupid. Don't be a dick. Don't be surprised if I don't engage. Don't be surprised if I ban you in a fit of pique.
  • Any more rules come up, I'll post 'em up front. Have the day you deserve.

     


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    Goodbye...
    by I Fear Who I Am Beco

    Jo, 

    I spent months in that jail cell with you, and we totally feed off each others energy in person. I could make you smile if you let me, I could be there and tell you everything is gonna be okay and hold your hand , but you wont let me. I could just sit there in silence with you for hours if that is what you want, but you wont let me. I could watch you do stupid shit like staple your arm, OR TATTOO YOURSELF WITH PEN INK IN JAIL or whatever youfeel the need to do at the time ,and I wouldnt stop you. but you wont let me. I could hold you in the dark when everything seems to fall apart and you feel depressed and you dont know why. I could hold you, but you wont let me. I could make you laugh, I would SING for you cuz I am a singer that lost the joy to sing, but you put a song in my heart even at your lowest. The darkness you have is amazingly agonizingly beautiful and its sweet torment to love you but I do. I do. And I know you say youre straight and all that, but this has nothing to do with that. Twin flames are SOULS that knew each other before we came to Earth and if they are lucky enough to find each other they need to hang onto that because THERE IS NOONE ELSE IN OUR LIVES THAT WILL EVER HAVE AS MUCH IN COMMON OR MIRROR EACH OTHER THE WAY THAT YOU AND I DO JOLENE. We ARE the twin flame and I was willing to love you til the end and beyond, but again you wont let me. I love you with all of my being but Im not a guy. And that is what you andpeople see. THIS HAS ZERO TO DO WITH BEING GAY. You can have many soulmates in this life but twin flames? There is only one. 

    If you wanted to pull a bonnie and clyde, I would be down. If you wanted to pull a romeo and juliet I would take the poison. I am in this for the long haul no matter what BUT YOU WONT LET ME. I wish to God you would acknowledge that there is SOMETHING beteen us. Ask out loud if I am yourr twin flame. The answer  will come. I pray that your eyes open and you see the opportunity you had with me. I would do anything for you, you know that. You have to pick yourself up off the ground because you WONT LET ME. 

    I want more than anything to hold you. But I cannot force you. I love you Jolene. My Ying Yang Twin. 

    Howl at the moon once in a while. Climb a tree. Do shrooms, lol do what makes you happy.

    ALSO...I can go the rest of my life without sex, but I would have made you very happy in that way believe me.I have a way with women in bed. :P 

    Youre the most special and amazing person that I have ever known. 

    I am sure you are used to people falling over themselves to get to you.

    Remember: There are many soulmares in this life. But only one twin flame. And I was it. 

    Plus I can soon sign the check there and get this over with. 

    Being a multi millionaire is causing me trouble. You could have literally been an HERISS to a fortune. But I will still wire you the money. 

    I love you so much. Im sorry for it. Because its not returned and Im not gonna be that girl who loves you and doesnt tell you. But Im also not gonna sit around and pine for you. I WILL move on. If you dont wanna be friends with me anymore I will respect that. 

    Under all theses pieces and parts of me, there is a beautiful heart and it loves you........Later Angel. <3


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    Fantasy?
    by I Fear Who I Am Beco

    I have had such a growing longing for you that it is threatening to consume me like a volcano which cannot hold all of the lava inside of it anymore. I cant do anything about it so I will do what I do know how to do and that is to write, and hope this memory will hold us both over for now. 

    I remember the first time with you. When we had danced around the subject, making jokes, making smiles, laughing, then both glancing at each other when we thought the other wasnt looking to see the reaction on our faces. We always WERE looking though. 

    Finally I had given up and I didnt think it was funny anymore, so I turned away from you and you grabbed my hand and said wait wait, Trish. You pulled me towards you and I actually heard your breath intake sharply like you couldnt catch your breath for a split second. Then you cupped my jaw with both your hands and quickly moved in to finally give me the kiss I had been so aching for. Our lips met in a kind of symbiotic push and pull, give and take, and I sucked your bottom lip into my mouth, as my tongue ran along your top lip a second later. 

    You are different than anyone else I have ever been with, in every single way but even down to your kisses because you LOOKED AT ME the entire time, and it was not even weird. With eyes like yours I could get lost forever in the ocean of you. And I have, beloved. I have become so lost in your sea. The depths have no end and I could spend the rest of my life getting to know you and it would never uncover the vast treasures you have inside your heart. So for tonight, I will settle for opening one treasure chest and diving into just one of your many bodies of water. I love you. 

    I took you into my arms, and kissed you again, harder this time, more urgent, and your hands ran down my back, and pulled my shirt over my head before I could even think straight. It was no doubt who was in charge, even from the beginning. Even as much as I wanted to fight against it, it was impossible. I was totally and completely, without reservation...Yours...And I was just aching for you to d, take me and make me yours for real. And that is exactly what you did. From head to toe you let me know just how much you wanted me too, your walls came down, and even as I wrapped my legs around you and felt you thrust into me hard as you possibly could, I knew something had changed in you too. You finally were willing to expose all of your darkness to me, even in the form of intense anger in the form of sexual gratification. And I was totally fine with you taking out the horror of your life on me, to use me to get yourself off, thats what I thought you were going to do. And you did. BUT, all of a sudden even with the violence of your kisses and the sweet torment of your thrusts, your touch on me and in me was so tender, it shocked me to my very core. You are the perfect balance of hate and love, and you know exactly how to use each to both give and recieve the love you shared with me that night. I could go on and detail every moment of wildness from that night but I just want to remember the fact that by the time we were finished, both were exhausted and yet never wanted to untwine from each other. 

    You are my forever and happily ever after and I will stop at nothing to keep it that way. I adore you my ocean eyes. And I will do whatever it takes to finally make you mine. To be yours. Forever. Just like it was ordained before we ever came here. 


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    March 7, 2024
    by raen

    You know what's cool? Not this month long affair my lungs and throat appear to be having with dry coughs. Like seriously. Make. It. Stop. I'm so tired. I have a doctor's appointment in an hour. Maybe they can give me something that will let me sleep and actually get better rather than float around in this half existence. I've been too tired to do anything other than sleep. Any energy I have is used up at work. And then I go home and crash...but not before I cough for several hours leading up to bed time. And then I sleep for a few hours, wake up, cough for ten fucking years, and do it all over again. Yay me. I'm pretty frustrated.

     

    I'm tired of listening to people say "You've still got that cough?" everytime they see me with a mask on. Like, no, I just like to pretend I've got this dry, wheezing, cough. It feels like my body is trying to expel my lungs. I kind of need those. Ugh. I'm so tired. So very tired. Make it stop.


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    thought about mental illness
    by local coke drinker

    Isn't it weird how the moment people display symptoms of mental illness that aren't "cute," or digestible, suddenly the perception is that they're just an asshole, or a "Karen"?

    Empathy seems to be reserved for socially acceptable behaviors.


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    Well....there's a sinus cold going around at my work right now. Three of us got sick Friday and Saturday, myself included. Today is the first day I don't feel like dying. I'm still clogged up like nobody's business. So of course....my period started as well. I got three hours of sleep last night. Cool. I'm fucking exhausted. Standard mode for me these days.

     

    Gosh, I love being a woman. Periods are terrible. I have no use for them considering the choice to be childfree. 

     

    I'd love if I could breathe through my nose again. 


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    Law School!
    by valencia
    I got accepted to Law School. Only Ryan and a few people know. It is a part-time program because I have to work but I am so happy and honestly it has not hit me yet. In about 4 yrs I will be an attorney. It is insane to me. I am not going to tell the rest of my family until I pass the bar. Lol! They sent me the textbook list and holy shit 😳 so many books to order. I am so excited though!!! I just got notified this morning and I just looked at the email practically all day because I am in shock. I been working in the legal field for over 8 yrs so now it is just one last step!

    Anyways I will keep you all updated.
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    Still here
    by The Venerable Pooh

    It would seem thet Bloop is still a thing. Funny thing is, the only reason I'm  here is a spam bot left a reply to my comment on someone's post from 8 years ago. Weird. Glad it's still around, though.


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    So far my year is starting out way better than it did last year. Last year I was depressed....and then I got Covid for the second time. So far this year....no Covid, not depressed. I'm happily single, and living my best life. Kaitlin, Kai, and I are planning a trip to Italy this Fall so that's going to be awesome. 

     

    In other news: I am exhausted. Lol


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    Rose.
    by I Fear Who I Am Beco

    I have been seeing people all my life through rose colored glasses. Because I wanted to believe the best. Wanted to believe they loved me. But my god apparently 90% if not more of the people in my life have seen in a very different light then I tried to view them. EVERYONE IS COUNTERFEIT. EVERYONE LIES. EVERYONE SAYS WHAT THE OTHER WANTS TO HEAR. UNTIL THEY DONT. Until a small offense is commited againt them, and then the bottled up things they always wanted to say spew out in inapporopriate forms, and...It causes more hurt than you could ever imagine. STOP BOTTLING UP THE LITTLE THINGS YOU THINK ABOUT PEOPLE...Like...Wow shes selfish. Wow shes mean. Wow shes rude, etc. THE DOUBTS BUILD UP AND IN ALL RELATIONSHIPS PEOPLE HURT EACH OTHERS FEELINGS THAT IS JUST THE WAY THAT IT IS. So when you dont tell the truth about how you feel about someone and then they do something that upsets you, ALL THAT COMES OUT AT ONCE. Dont even try to deny it.

    Moving on, to my father. All my life I saw him as my hero, he would put me up on his shoulders, and I felt like the tallest person alive, and thought he was the strongest. And how I would pretend to be sleeping in the backseat when him me and my mom would come home from somewhere, just so that he would carry me in like a baby and put me to bed. I felt safe then which is almost never my whole life. And warm. And giggled inside. Also when he would read me a story before bed, I would always grab the thickest one of my books that I could find just to keep him near me for longer. And for my whole lifetime, that was the image I had of him, even when he broke me into a million little pieces and basically handed me the metaphorical broom and dustpan and said BYE. But in reality? Those were only moments, snapshots in a life, filled with terror and rejection, and I am getting dizzy even trying to type this from the man who has been hacking this computer and wifi for months if not longer. Hes black. Sits there with headphones, wore a wifebeater, and I saw him for a split second, oops. Just...Watching. Through the screen. ANYWAYS, that is not what this is about...This is about my dad. Who when I was scared of the shadow people who harassed and even abducted me at night? And the demons on the ceiling. And the cloaked milita.ry people coming up the stairs? Outside too. He chased me out of his bedroom in a fit of rage because I woke him up and he thought I was crazy. Even as a child. Sometimes I would be lucky enough and my mom would step in so I got to sleep on their floor beside the bed. I could NEVER go to him with any of my problems and yet I adored him. We would go on ' dates ' and go get food and just be together. Then when I was 15 I THINK, he started cheating on my mom, who knwosx how long it was really going on. And he wouldnt give up this bitch, so he abandoned me for her and her two kids. I was an only child, this bully was the only man in my life, and the only one I ever had up to them who was an example of how men were supposed to be. What a joke. I used to watch him raise his hands and praise God in church, knowing full well where he would be that night. I saw other fathers growing up who had major temper issues, yelling at their families weather I or anyone else was there or not. Gotta love the realness of these pricks tho. My dad broke my heart. In my mind, leaving me for those 2 kids was the worst betrayal I had ever endured then. Taking them places, buying them things, giving them the love I so desperated craved and dare I say DESERVED as his ONLY CHILD. THEY ADOPTED ME FOR GODS SAKE WTF IS WRONG WITH THEM. My mom with her temper issues, and emotional basketcase-ness. I never felt loved from her, except in small moments. I TOOK CRUMBS FROM PEOPLE MY WHOLE LIFE. And built those crumbs into a statue. I saw it as a stone statue, but it was just bread. Falible. Frail. Knockable over. STUPID. Then my mentor invited me to a ' safe place ' with her and her husband, only to find out pretty quickly he was a perverted POS that TRULY BELIEVES UNLESS VAGINAL PENITRATION HAPPENS, NOTHING IS CHEATING. And I do mean nothing. I paid dearly just for being alive and breathing my entire life. The wholeness of my life has been a waste. The moments...The moments were beautiful. But the whole? A fucking throwaway. Im done pretending. I WAS BORN WITH THIS UNCONDITIONAL LOVE AND TENDER HEART. For some reason this world wanted me dead before I was even born. Wish I could write my book. If anyone would even read it. Who knows. What I d o know is tender hearts, on sleeves, make for very bad expieriences for those with the essense of agape love in their very breathe,....Their blood pumping in time with the heart of IloveyouIloveyouIloveyou. And its like the puppy, you kick it, it dont bite you, it comes running into your lap with kisses over and over and over. Im sick. Im just so tired.


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    Upcoming Trip
    by valencia
    Happy December!

    It has been a while since writing in here. I go on Vacation starting Tuesday. We are going to Texas to visit family. After almost two years I am going home and Ryan is coming with me on this trip. I am excited to show him where I grew up and him to meet some of my family. We have an early flight and right now we are very busy at work and trying to pack in-between my breaks at work. I have a bunch of fun stuff planned also. We have tickets for NASA, an Art Museum and a Holocaust Museum (Not Fun obviously but educational). We are going to visit my mom's gravesite and I ordered flowers from the local flower shop for my mom's arrangement. We are supposed to visit my brother but not sure now because his girlfriend works until closing. (She is a manager at a Target) Understandable but she is off the weekend of so I am trying to see when we can meet. I am also going to go visit my grandmother and have Ryan meet her. Fingers crossed her nursing facility is not closed due to COVID.

    We started packing this week because this weekend we are busy with Ryan's mom. Ryan's mom is taking us shopping today after work and then tomorrow we have Lucky's appointment at 2:00 PM for him to get groom before going to the babysitter and Ryan has to help her with a few things also. So on Sunday I plan to do all our last minute packing and also have to get Lucky packed. Lucky goes to the dog sitter on Monday because we have a 5:00 AM flight and have to be at the airport by 3:00 AM. Monday I work also but I am going to clock in early to be out of work by 4:00 PM then we are going to eat dinner and then take a nap from like 7 PM to midnight. Ryan's mom is taking us to the airport.

    Also we only owe 200 dollars to the vet! Almost paid off! yay!!!! I need to write a review for his vet because that vet saved his life.
    Lucky is doing amazing and we started his advent calendar this morning. He loves getting different treats everyday. I get his advent calendars at Trader Joe's.

    Our christmas shopping is done.
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    Kaitlin and I are doing an advent calendar style Christmas this year. It's our first year trying it out. The idea is sound and we'll know if it works well and what needs to be improved upon after this comes to a close. 

     

    There's a silent book club starting up in my city. The club meets up at a cafe/pub, has drinks, brings whatever book their reading, and decide if they're going to talk or not. So we just go to a public place and read our books with likeminded folk. My mom and I are going to go on one of the Wednesdays coming up. That'll be interesting. I almost want to bring smut to scandalize people, but book people don't get scandalized. Lol

     

    The 60th anniversary of Doctor Who has begun. The first episode came out and is on Disney Plus for those who are Whovians. I haven't watched it yet. Probably will when I'm more awake. I worked until midnight last night and I always find that I'm super groggy the entire day following a long night. I wasn't made for nights. I was made for early mornings and solitary sunrises. 

     

    I'm exhausted. It feels like I did eighty million squats while at work last night. My thighs are so upset about life. I look youthful and am not. People seem to take that less seriously when they can't physically see age. So silly. Of course, even if I were actually in my twenties, I'd still feel like shit. Yay chronic illness!!!


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    Hippie Soul
    by nerdy_bree

    Life has been interesting to say the least. I honestly don't even know where to start or what to even say. 

    I've been feeling beat down and pissed off and sad with what's going on in Palestine and how my country is helping commit genocide, but it really shouldn't surprise me given our fucking history. Only a few people in my life have acknowledged whats going on and even few have spoken out against the colony of Isreal. It's just surprising to me that people that protested Vietnam are a lot of the voices justifying or staying silent about what is happening. We're watching an entire country of people be wiped off the face of the Earth. People are standing up against it but the Governments are backing a tyrannical dictator....... so much for being a voice of the people...

     

    Work got better and now it's gone backwards, to the point of me being ready to quit again. I almost got a promotion and out of my store but they went with someone within that store and it just worked out better for moral at that store to go with them. It was totally crushing because I did amazing at the interview according to that Store Manager and I was soooo close to being out of my current store, that I could practically taste it . 

    Kyle has been a raging dickhead for the last few weeks. We got a new District Manager and he doesn't seem to be fond of brown nosers, which is basically what Kyle is, soooo, now we all have to deal with a moody, bitchy grown ass man-child >.<. My new direct manager, Jim, is awesome but I feel so bad for him. He's not use to a micromanaging dickhead as his boss. Jim's actually from the store I interviewed at for the promotion. He had an amazing store manager and basically got down graded when he got promoted to this position. I'm trying to learn as much as I can from him and just keep my head above water. I'm praying Kyle either gets transfered or fired. I am calling on my petty spiteful side and I will either outlast this mother fucker or get promoted, but he will not beat me down or force me out of the company by quiting. 

     

    Family life is going alright. My bio dad and his family haven't really talked to me in a.....year? Maybe less, maybe more. Honestly, I'm not sure and really don't care if I'm being honest. My Dad is doing better health wise. He's still suffering from GBS, but is getting stronger, has lost weight which is helping with his diabetes, and his PT seems to be going really good. I worry he's going to be with a walker permanently, which I think would be tough for him as he's only 57 and has always been a pretty active man ((football games, Disneyland trips, Vegas trips, etc)). He seems to be handling everything ok, as far as I can see and from what Mom says. I need to take her out for a girls day to a spa or something. She needs to relax and press pause on everything thats going on. 

    We had another death in the family. My Tio Oscar passed away from cancer a month or so back. His funeral was very nice but it was a little tough going by myself. My parents were there but Nick had to work, so that was a little tough as I'm very much an introvert and don't really like socializing. Some of the cousins were talking about doing a family reunion, which would be nice, but they've said this every funeral and nothing has happened, so we shall see. Hopefully I won't have to go to that without Nick because as much as I love my family, that would be torture. 

     

     


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    On GNJ
    by ~Anonymouse~

    Today was an ok day. I slept about 50% of the morning and about 66% of the afternoon away. I have a GoodNightJournal here... that I post to. I can easily post to it by my cell or tablet... which is a +. Tonight we are having bacon cheeseburgers and a side (most likely french fries?) or bacon chicken cheeseburgers. Yum!!

    I need to use the bathroom and then, I need to do my insulin. G2G. My alarm just sounded!

     

    Sammy


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    The ending is pretty predictable... but it has a weird weird vibe. It has a lot of gorgeous dollies in it being called Dollface. If you watch, tell me what you think. It is on YT, here is the link. I find it bizarre as all get out... even with the pretty dolls. Makes me want to get me a Cabbage Patch Kid again. I had one; a French popstar called Gracienne Camille. :) She had long brunette hair and violet eyes and a dimple in one cheek, like I have. (I'm not a brunette nor do I have violet eyes but I do have the dimple. :D) I miss her. I lost her a long time ago.

    What about y'all? Did you, or do you enjoy collecting dolls or things? If so, what? I'm curious.

    Today I had a breakthrough. I went out to eat with Bees and Julz.... the staff have faith in me now. It took them awhile... but I have their trust again.

    And, I'm getting my Samsung phone fixed and a case and charger for it too. :) 

    I had fish & chips... among other things.. I shared some poutine, and mozza sticks with Bees and Julz.

    All in all a great day. Tomorrow will be even better!

    Sammy


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    Samhain 2023
    by ~Anonymouse~

    I did the draw. I got the card Receptivity. You can read the article here. Also, a summary of the evening... here. I'm lazy I know. But at least I am coming down off my sugar rush.

    Today was very productive. I got my bills settled and shit like that. Perf. Now all I need is a cash advance from Dave and I'm set for bear. I think I'll either listen to music or just go mad watching horror movies... which is a perf ending to a great day.

    I wanna watch the rest of Saw X. And maybe Terrifier 2? Or maybe just listen to Harry Styles again. :-P 

    Sammy


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    I thought that I'd try the colored text out. Pretty cool. You can even add a background color... I thought that I'd do this for Samhain tomorrow. They are carving pumpkins which I majorly suck at. I am good at drawing Machiavellian faces on pumpkin or gourds, but carving and picking the shit out of them? No thanks. I think that is just gross. Heh. I have seen some fucking awesome pumpkin carvings on the net, and I gotta say ... just... wow!!

    Um.. I have a year survey on one of my bookmarks, and I was just wondering, do y'all want me to start now?? Or Jan 1st? Or December 31st? What?

    I don't dress up bc I'm scary as my own self (lol) but also the idea of a real witch (which I am bc I'm Wiccan) dressing up as a sort of Wizard of Oz witch?? Or whatever the stereotype is, it's just stupid.

    What I plan on doing is not much of anything. I am doing a draw of my Osho tarot, and I will share it online with y'all. I usually just draw one card for the evening, and come what may, y'see??

    I had to return the gaming computer cos I couldn't afford the ridiculous pricetag. Things are so bloody expensive nowadays! It's terrible!! Oh well, I am going to ask if I could get a better iPad for Christmas.  I am on a tight leash when it comes to buying tech. I have a slight hoarding problem.

    But there shouldn't be any problem with that. :)

    What are you doing for Samhain/Hallowe'en?

    I know that I might binge on horror movies and those snack sized chips? Ya.

    Sammy


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    I just want to pull one of these... right now bc I just hate Rogers. :( 

     

    Chevy Chase is amazing in the NL movies... I've always liked this scene. :D But yeah, Rogers is

    being a royal pain in the @$$. They are over charging me on my Internet bill.. as always. But shit has to 

    get better right? Right.

    J is being a bitch towards me, she is another thorn in my side.

    I FUCKING GIVE UP. No, strike that. I don't. I want to succeed. I WILL succeed. 

    Sammy


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    Nearly Samhain!
    by ~Anonymouse~

    So... my clonazepam knocked me out again. I am awake now. I have to see about lowering or changing it all together. Either that or I am part cat/owl or both. I'm listening to Harry Styles' "As It Was"... as I'm obsessed with that song for some reason.

    As I didn't do much of anything this weekend, I am going to have to kick up my game a notch. I need to walk more and eat less. But it is harder than it seems... I love to eat. 😳 But I can do it. I just need to get some motivation. I have to. My hip is hurting which means that it is going to snow/rain. 

    You know what BloopDiary reminds me of? Old skool OD! Back wayyyyyyyyyyy when. Don't you think?? Yes? No? Maybe so? Sorta? 

    Tonight we are having roast chicken, mashed potatoes and a veg of some sort. Good finish to a weird day. Well, maybe not weird ... more like sleepy lol...

    I might just grab Bees and go for a walk. :) I just asked her, and silence... 🤣 Maybe... oops. Ok, she does! I will take more 3DS pix!

    Sammy


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    Matthew Perry, my favorite 'Friend' has died. 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 Here is the CBC obit.  This is devastating! 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

    I think that I will play the Sims 4 today. I want to make an elder bc with the elders you can have meals on wheels delivered to your sims front door. I find that so cool. They don't have to cook!

    Hopefully my clonazepam (not lorazepam) will not knock me out for the day, so that I can interact with y'all. 😊

    It usually does kick in rather fast, but not for the whole day... yesterday I was very sleepy to begin with bc of poor sleep, but today I woke up at like 7:30am which is very rare for me. 😲

    Anyways, RIP Matthew. I ♥ you. And have a great day despite it all.


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    I got most of my downloads here. Her name is Kaylah. Her surname is beyond me at this time.

     

    Makoto St. Jean (or John) is one of the welcome wagon-ers. I like the way he holds himself. So, I boolpropped him with Kaylah. Boolpropping is a loose term for cheating and getting her pregnant by the TOLAD... among other stuff...

     

    She looks like Suzanne Vega here for some reason...

     

    Makoto being his dapper self.

     

    Her firstborn turned out to be a boy named Adam.

     

    Makoto did this autonomously. Good pappy. :)

     

    Kaylah got baby sick on her after 'playing' with Adam. 

     

    Handsome bugger eh??

     

    Teaching the basics of toddlerhood to Adam.

    I love when sims do this -- I know it's just them chewing but it is really funny despite that.

     

    She adopted a baby (again a boy!) and named him Noah...

     

    Noah is a stunner. I'm not sure who should be heir... what do you think??

     

    After two days of (lucrative) army detail, she found her ideal career in the athletic track.

     

    Adam grew up and is very cute. :)

    The two brothers chill in their bedroom. I took the second crib out and into Kaylah's room, as I am ... or was hoping for a girl... but like I said, forgot to save before shutdown, so idk....

     

    W00t!!

    This last image is of Kaylah and her son getting Noah to speak. :)

    If I saved, Kaylah is alien pregnant. And, hopefully, it will be a girl?

    Sammy


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    Pt 2
    by ~Anonymouse~

    Proof that Tom Nook is an asshole. :P

     

    Carmen needs to lay off the pixi stix. :P

     

    There is ongoing construction on our street this past week and probably again this week too. Lucy I. is in blue and Ash is the one in black.

     

    A weeping fir? Spruce? IDK.

     

    Here is the street sign for our street (Arden Ave) and Millard. Pictured here is Bees (Colleen is her real name) in red, and to the far right Kate, her room-mate.

     

    My next door neighbor Joe's house. Joe's alright. Used to be a councilman, now he is retired. Does like the ganja though...

     

    Bees in mid sentence. This was on Wednesday it was.

    Festive decorations. Witch X-ing. The term ladies and germs is Wiccan???

     

    A string of skulls (not real though!)

    See that scarecrow/entity to the right on the porch? I thought that was a real thing lol...

     

    A nice house on Millard Ave.

     

    The set of trees I call the 'sentinel trees' cos they look like guards.

     

    Don't know why, but someone just left a pumpkin discarded there.

     

    I am obsessed with Midsomer Murders, so.. in Animal Crossing: Welcome Luxury which is a very cheat-y version of New Leaf... I named my town Midsomer heh... and there are chars like Hamlet who are muscleheads, then you've got the whackjobs like Carmen and the normies...

     

    I will do up a seperate entry for the simming stuff... ok??

    k, thnx!

    Sammy


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    3DS Pix
    by ~Anonymouse~

    I swear to whomever, early on-set Alzheimer's in our girl Izzy. :o

    This is on my New Leaf game. :)

    This Rosebud resident has x's for eyes... :o

    OK. If you have a Switch or a 3DS (XL) you know the level of crazy that is in this game right?

    I have NO fucking clue Carmen... seriously!!

    Pt 2 on the way! Plus simming pix! Just don't ask me what my founders name is. LOL!!!

    Sammy


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    I'm on vacation right now. Kaitlin and I drove up to the Ottawa IKEA yesterday, did some shopping. I got some framed black and white photos for above my bed, another cushion for the breakfast nook, new duvet cover, and a stuffy for Chuck. Most people probably buy those stuffy's for their kids. We buy ours for a golden retriever. Same thing, right? Then we went to the Rideau Centre because they have an Anthropologie. That store was very underwhelming. 

     

    We spent the night at Kaitlin's parents cottage last night. It was a great time, super relaxing. When we got home the house was way too warm so we opened a bunch of windows to air the house out. It was great being able to open the house up when it's almost November. But, you know, also bad because climate change is a thing. 

     

    I'm enjoying period cramps right now too. So lovely. I've been listening to music and writing just to distract myself. Hasn't worked. Had to risk a flare up and take some ibuprofen. I'm waiting for it to kick in. Any minute now. Fuck I'm so uncomfortable. I can feel the pain right through to my lower back. 


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    Sleeping away the day....
    by ~Anonymouse~

    I have had that song in my head for the longest time. I even dreamt of it last night. I like Harry Styles, but he should have not

    cut those gorgeous curls!

    Like:

    There he is with his absentee dad. But here he is now:

    Gorgeous right? But those curls and the dimples????

    Cute af.

    I am usually a sucker for men like Niall. Blond and all? But, there is something about Mr. Styles... lol.

     

    Enough guy goss. Seriously, I could go on and on about that subject.

    I will post the pictures I have on the Sims 2 but I had to restart my computer and ... I forgot to save...? It sucks... but maybe I did? IDK.

    I will post the 3DS pix for sure. :3

    Sammy


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    I am 5'. I thought that I was taller but nope. I'm a shawty. I am downloading Animal Crossing: Welcome Luxury. It is like a cheat-y AC:NL. I actually prefer that over New Leaf. Idk why, though. I guess it's easier?? IDK...

    I didn't go out bc my clonazepam just knocked me out like it does every morning. I could just go later but I am still kind of dopey... as soon as I catch my second wind, I will update with the Sims.

    I have discovered that I am really good with iPhones and Android phones... more so iPhones... bc well, let's face it, I am a Macintosh girl. I do own pcs, but at heart... I love Apple. ♥

    TBH I feel like a zombie. Pinky says by the time 2025 rolls around, zombies and monsters will roam the Earth.... I don't know whether or not to believe it but... what do you think?

    Sammy


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    So, I just looked out the window, and it is pretty clear out, which is good. I will play the Sims today if I get a chance... bc when it's nice in October in Ontario, you take advantage of that lol... cos it can get nasty quite quickly here. There just seems to be a bit of smudges of clouds in the sky this morning. 

    I'm hungry so.... I'm going to check to see if breakfast is ready... J is on this weekend with her kitty Jack. :) I haven't seen him yet, but J assures me that he's a darling. IDK how Jotee will see things.

    I hear people stirring... so... brb.

    Sammy


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    Just woke up...
    by ~Anonymouse~

    Hello. I hope my typing in big text doesn't bug anyone... bc I really need new glasses. I want to get a red pair. I think that would be cool. :D It's about 7:10 EST... and I've got this song on repeat today.

     

    Last night I had a weird dream involving Harry Styles, and One Direction... I can have pretty weird dreams. It's funny, bc my sleep tracker says that I only had 1 hour and 50 min of REM sleep... which isn't bad I reckon....

    Today is lazy Saturday. I am just going to bingewatch maybe horror movies.. not bc it's Samhain (or as you normies call it Hallowe'en... just bc that horror is my favorite genre of movie. I may watch Her Name was Christa for the umpteenth time bc a) it is a superb horror and b) I like shit like that. Not the necro but the idea that Stephen is.

    I am weird af... I know. I enjoy being Wiccan and weird. Also, I may watch Midsomer Murders. Gotta love Daniel Casey. *fans self*

    So, what are you all up to these days??

    I can't play piano like Marina can but I can sing. I tried the violin/violin but I ragequit bc quite frankly I don't have the patience. Ha!

    Til later?

    Sammy

     


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    I live in Newmarket, and this town's literally gone to the dogs. They outweigh cats, bunnies, and stuff like birds and reptiles? Ya. Totally doggyville. Not that there is anything wrong with that. Marina, I can't access your diary. It says you don't allow new users. ... idk. I have an OD, but I think that OD is kind of dying as everyone I know is either on Prosebox or something else. IDK..

    I have pictures and screenshots from my 3DS games... they will appear here. Um, as for the Nintendo Switch, gotta wait til May. And I think I have to rebuy all of my effing games... yet again. CONGLOMERATE NINTENDO ARSEHATS!!!

    Sorry, I had to get that out. LOL...

    Right now, I have Sims 2 screenies too... but that will have to wait for tomorrow as my brains are mashed potatoes tired.... I just took my anti-psychotic. I will start writing here more often.

    Well.. oh! And, of course, I will have pictures of my bun bun, Leo. He really is such a sweetheart, but he takes temper tantrums when he isn't fed his morning apples and bananas. He is a funny little bunny. But I love him so much.

    Well, I am really am zonked.

    Sammy


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    You click on the star icon on the top right hand of the screen above the persons diary the star will turn dark after clicking it to indicated you added the person to your faves. I added you to my faves
    Today has been another hard day. It's one of those days when the pain of losing Mum feels as fresh as if it happened yesterday. Grief is a rollercoaster, and some days the ride is particularly steep.

    On days like today, it's a struggle to hold back the tears and keep the emotions in check. I miss her more than words can express, and the ache in my heart is almost unbearable. It's okay to admit that. It's okay to grieve, even when it feels like I should be stronger by now.

    I've learned that during these tough moments, it's crucial to reach out to my support system. Whether it's a friend who's been through something similar or a family member who understands the depth of my pain, talking to someone who cares can bring a bit of solace.

    Self-care becomes a lifeline on days like today. I've decided to light a candle in her memory, allowing the flickering flame to create a sense of peace and connection. Sometimes, it's the little things that help me get through the day.

    Honoring Mum's memory can be both comforting and bittersweet. Today, as the candle burns, I remember the times we shared and the warmth of her love that continues to shine in my heart.

    I've come to accept that grief doesn't follow a timetable. It has its own rhythm, and I'm learning to be patient with myself on these tough days. Healing is a slow and winding path, and I don't have to rush it.

    So, today has been another hard day, but I'm making it through. I remind myself that the love and memories I shared with Mum are eternally etched in my heart. They're the beacons that guide me through the darkest moments and bring light to these tough days.
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    Johnathan Franklin and Eddie Lacy running backs Green Bay Packers

    Fantasy football players are likely to be monitoring the Packers running back's scenario with keen interest during the course of training camp as well as the preseason. Youngsters Eddie Lacy and Johnathan Franklin are expected to split the load of the Green Bay backfield as they have different strengths. However, one of the running backs might be different in the preseason.

    Quanterus Smith, Defensive end/Outside linebacker, Denver Broncos

    Quanterus Smith could have received more pre-draft excitement if he hadn't torn his ACL towards the end of his senior season. Smith is one of the most technologically advanced players in the class that is currently being drafted, however the Broncos are hoping that he retains his power after suffering his knee injury that ended his season. Is he able to train in the training camp? If so, how successful will the results be?

    Cornellius Carradine, Defensive end, San Francisco 49ers

    Another injury issue worth keeping an eye on during the beginning of the season could be 49ers rookie Tank Carradine and his ACL injury. He seemed to be recovering with a speedy pace as he heads to the draft, but what will he do to deal with the demands of Madden NFL 23 training camp? A healthy Carradine in the 49ers defense appears to be unfair, as he has the ability to stick his foot in the ground, and then rise to get after the passer. He could have been a first rounder if not because of his knee injury.

    Tyler Bray, Quarterback, Kansas City Chiefs

    Character concerns have been added to the list of priorities for Madden NFL 23 teams after the events of the last few offseasons. Tyler Bray went undrafted because of issues surrounding his maturity.
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    2K released a synopsis of the game ahead on 2K Day: "Become the best player in the league when you play NBA 2K23 Championship Edition on PS5! Play as some of the most famous players within the NBA or write your own name in MyCAREER. Revise the rules of the game as create your dream team using MyTEAM and learn to improve your performance on the court with authentic play in this classic basketball basketball online game.

    Get your name on the map in The City, the most large-scale basketball world online (for PS5? ) or take a an exciting basketball adventure (for PlayStation 4?) aboard an ocean cruise. Whatever the voyage, be ready to call next with the top basketball players in the largest basketball community. "The NBA 2K23 size of the file for Xbox Series X|S is three times that of Elden Ring and dwarfs Warzone, GTA V, Forza Horizon 5, and many more

    For a long while, Call of Duty games like Warzone were the butt of any joke on game console storage space and file sizes. The battle royale, prior embarking on a shrinking file size diet, took over massive amounts of internal storage. So would the likes of Black Ops Cold War and . With the coming launch of NBA 2K23, Xbox players could be getting a brand-new game to play with as it tries to take over storage space.

    As was first reported by MP1st, the capability to install NBA 2K23 on Xbox Series X|S has shown how big this year's version of the basketball game is going to be. The NBA 2K23 filesize comes in at 152 GB which makes it one of the largest games available on the platform at the moment now.This surpasses many other games which are thought to have large file sizes.
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    The first item on the agenda today is the vaunted new Power Shot. The Power Shot is a shot that relies heavily on the skill of the shooter by incorporating an opportunity for risk and reward that lets you unleash powerful shots against the opponent's goal.How to make Power Shots: LB/L1 + RB/R1 + Shoot manually while aiming

    When to use Power Shots: due to the animation taking quite some time to complete therefore, power shots should be employed when there is plenty of time the command. In general, any power shot attempted near the 18-yard box will be blocked if the route is unclear because the path is typically more straight when compared to finesse shots.

    Kudos thanks to EA for giving us the new shooting feature particularly one that includes manual aiming. Also, you can switch off the monotonous zoom-in feature that occurs as the Power Shot is activated. Overall, it's an excellent feature to shoot with.

    Set pieces have long been stale in FIFA through the years. While free kicks are still far too few for my taste however, when you do find one they are much more dynamic. Additionally, penalties have been simplified to make it easier. Additionally, the corners have not been able to copy the same mechanics as set pieces, but have a nice new camera view.

    The circle that is a composure for the ball. Press play when it is in its smallest to ensure maximum accuracy. Hold down R1/RB or L1/LB at same time that you shoot for a precise or chip shot Use an left-hand stick for directing the shot prior to the ball is struck The size and speed at which the circle moves depends on your penalty kick's rating and also the time and context to be used for your spot kickand kicks that are towards the conclusion of the game carry an additional amount of pressure.How you can take an e-set piece:
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    We LOVE thanksgiving! The Macy's Thanksgiving Day Parade is my favorite. I love the floats, the bad music (ok some is good but let's be honest...) and the random people that tackle Al Roker! You never know who's going to talk to him. I wonder if he's going to be in it this year. Didn't he have some kind of health scare? I still miss Fat Al, but at least this one is semi-healthy. :)

    My husband always makes the bird. I'll make cinnamon rolls or something we definitely shouldn't have for breakfast while we watch the parade. Santa, at the end of the parade, ALWAYS makes me cry. I don't know why. I think it just symbolizes the beginning of the Christmas season, so it just fills me with EVERY FEEL.

    And of course, the family text/call thread. The first day of the year you answer the phone to numbers you don't know. "Oh Aunt so-and-so, Mum gave you my number? Greaaaaaat!" Then you don't do that until Christmas. lol
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    Yes we are! And yes that is exactly what they are! Some people sell them, I enjoy doing them but I don't hang things on my walls because I rent and I don't want to have to fix walls when I move out lol. I am thinking of trying Facebook Marketplace first and if not, etsy. I already have a shop there.
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    I take ten times better pictures with my phone than I did when we had that fancy camera my MIL bought us 16 years ago.
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    Hello! :)
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