I met Will ingame. He lives in Somerset with his parents and his dog Charlie. Will is 2 years older than me. But in terms of maturity, he is probably about 10 years older!
It was quite a silly series of events that brought us together. Well, it seemed that way to us.
The great thing about WoW is that you can queue up for random dungeons and get a placement in a group of people from other realms. Sometimes its a good experience, sometimes not. There are always pricks on the inet. WoW is no exception.
If you join me in a dungeon, and we come up against one the these pillocks, it may be quite an experience. Especially if you are the quiet retiring type. I won't just sit back and let a pillock dominate the group. I will be a mouthy mare and tell them whats what. I won't just sit back and let someone be bullied because they aren't doing something completely right. (my view is that we are all learning and everyone deserves a chance to improve) I will issue a complaint and get the arsehole kicked out of the group. If someone gets pissy with me about anything I'm doing, I won't just take it. I will stand up for myself.
Thats where Wills relationship with me began. At this time I was in an all girl Guild - it was like as haven sometimes. (the ratio of men to women is 5:1) A group of us, Isabella (married) , Trixie (lesbian) and I, we began spamming dungeons together. We were shoved into a group with a healer (Druid). He began taking the piss out of Trix, who is actually a very good Tank. But as he was healing, he let her die twice and blamed her on both occasions for taking too much damage!? The fact was, he wasn't paying attention. Im nothing if not loyal, sometimes fiercely so, and I began to argue with the healer. Most healers think they run the show, but I don't treat healers like they are demi-gods. Probably because Moonbeam is my healing Druid and I know how easy it is to heal dungeons, especially with Curse.com add-ons.
Well, this guy argues with me all the way through the dungeon. I mean all the way through it. Finally, we got to the end of Scarlet Monasteries and we thought he had left the party. So Trixie began bitching about him. I just said that he had balls to take me on in an argument and not back down. But that he was actually a pretty good healer when he concentrated. He was listening in to the conversation, and we were too distracted to realise! He had heard everything and thanked me for the complimnet! lol
A few weeks later, I was playing Moonbeam and healing Coilfang Reservoir (hc). The tank was excellent. I remember not having to heal him very much, in fact he didnt really need me there. The only place I was busy was at the final boss. Apart from that it was a very smooth run. We finished up, I got the drop I wanted and complimented the Tank. I left the group.
The next day ,a name I didn't immediately recognise /w me and asked if I fancied healing some dungeons for him. It was the tank from the previous day. I said I was busy, trying to get my spec perfect. He asked if I needed any help because he had a druid healer too. We met at the Trainer in the park in Stormwind. I got organised and he pointed out some good talent points. We sat in the park for a while, chatting about our different characters. Turns out, the tank was the Druid that healed Scarlet Monasteries! The tank/druid was Will. I think Will and I were both amazed, it turned out that we had met on a few different occasions, with different characters and not realised. Will is the current GM of a Guild called "The Nebular."
It wasn't long before we were spending quite a lot of time together and I joned "The Nebular". We exchanged email and phone numbers. Dungeoneering with Will is great, because when I'm with him, I don't have to be the dominant one. He takes complete control. He is an unselfish player, happily tanking dungeons until I got the drop. Emailing me screenshots of his healing bar/rotations and specs. If I had any problems he was there, not just now and again, but always. If male players were stalking me, he would take the name and /w them, arguing and following them and warning them to leave me the fuck alone. It wasn't that I couldn't do it for myself, it was just that he seemed to want to. This was a new experience for me. I quite liked it.
I would say it took about 4 weeks for me to fall for Will. I fell hard, really hard. Also, a first for me, having feelings for someone online. I wanted to tell him. I did. He didn't feel the same way about me. It was the first time I had ever been rejected by a guy. The fact that it was online, didn't seem to make any difference to the pain. It hurt. I did cry. Every time we met I initiated stupid arguments. I don't know why. I just did. Its funny to re-read that I fell in love with Will, because during all this time I was building a very strong attachment to Matt as well. My friendship with Matt was burgeoning into something we both weren't expecting. Not to mention my weekend erp sessions with Gavin ( which happened when he has home on leave, from the Middle east)
I left the Guild, because the atmosphere between us was making it uncomfortable for other players. To be fair, it was my decision. He didn't want me to leave. It was obvious that I had no respect left for him. We would get into nasty arguments and I knew it was finally over when he said that I was just " a spoiled little Princess who caused a ruckus when she didn't get her own way". I was both furious and embarassed, in front of all the members of the guild! By this point I couldn't wait to leave.
The Guild began to attack some of my friends who I had previously put on an exclusion list. They were Horde and would regularly bring their Horde characters to Goldshire for the lols. Will, Glenn and Tabby would come to GS to specifically attack them. It really pissed me off - big time. I cut off most of my association with them. I didn't try to get back at Will. I just left it all alone. Possibly because I did genuinely have feelings for him, I didn't want to purposely hurt him.
After Cataclysm launched Will got in touch with me again. We would Msn now and again. A few months had passed and I had moved my characters from Bladesedge to Argent Dawn (rp realm). I was much happier there. I left my hunter in Bladesedge, so I could still contact old friends. Matt moved his Dwarf to AD too. Sometimes Will would come on the ingame voicechat and talk to me in Argent Dawn. I didn't hold a grudge against Will. When he contacted me in AD I was happy to see him again and offered him any help I could. I had 2 level 85's by this point. He found the whole rp thing quite strange. I don't blame him it is strage if you are not interested in it I suppose. At this stage, I didn't really give a fuck what he thought. But, I did notice that when he was in AD he seemed much more free to just be himself. The responsibilties of being a GM made him far too serious.
It was around three weeks after that, that he told me that he now had feelings for me!? It made me laugh to myself. I couldn't quite understand it to be fair. All my feelings for him were gone. How could he love me now? It all felt surreal. My feelings had been quashed, his had grown. I told him how my feelings were now different.
His very last MSN message to me was this:
'I was trying to play it cool,
But time has left me a lonely fool'
Sometimes revenge comes and you don't even have to try.
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