Whore

hmmm..I dunno. I've never thought about it.
I tihnk if you are being safe, and everyone involved knows the "rules"...(that you aren't playing games or making ppl think it means more than it does) then maybe you aren't a slut. I think a whore is someone who cheats on another. But a slut is someone who is trashy, not safe, will sleep with ANYONE who shows them attention. I think you could have multiple partners, but not be slutty, too. Like Samantha on Sex and the City (which I'm sure you don't watch)..she has a lot of men, but she's not slutty.
*shrugs*

*Stealth Bombshell*

I don't see how a single person dating several people at once makes him/her a whore. Guys do this all the time, and nobody calls them whores. Everyone has their own opinion though, and maybe you're just saying this person is a whore because you're not happy with your own sex life.

~*Jodi*~

It is your choice to comment or not comment. Whether you think I am still blunt or not anymore has nothing to do with whether or not you choose to comment. It has certainly never bothered you before. No matter how many times you stress the "not" word or how many times you say that because I've changed and therefore won't comment - you will not make me feel guilty for being who I am and you will not make me feel badly because YOU CHOOSE not to comment and want to 'blame' me. As I said, whether or not you say something is up to you, and is your choice. It is not my fault, and I will not feel badly about it. You've not been around for going on 2 years now regularly. It doesn't feel like you know me anyways, and you seem to act as if you do not care about any other living being besides yourself. It would be different if you just 'came off' as caring, but it seems obvious the more that you talk to me that you really don't.

Besides that, I already know what you think of inter-racial dating and mixed children, and if all you were going to do was put down some children because of their skin color, then I probably did not want to hear what you had to say anyways.

~*Jodi*~

yeah, the pic isn't the best. I swiped it off some website. The ones I used to get out in Cali were massive. They were like 2 freaking lbs almost and it took a couple settings to eat one.

but yeah...you know what I'm talking about.

Music God Of Bloop

ryc: True enough, but I actually do love him. I am willing to meet the bastard half-way, but with him, it's always one way OR the other. Can we never fucking meet in the damn middle?? Really?? It drives me batty sometimes.

My buddy Junior said to me the other day, "Yeah, you should stay way from that dude before he drives you crazy" and I said, "It would be a short drive. I'm already one rest-stop away from being there on my own."

Like I need any help being driven crazy. Playing mind-games with someone is not helping. lol.

~*Jodi*~

ryc: Yes, I know. I revert back to what I know because in some way, I am in control because I already know the outcome. It is better than the unknown. It is better than the fear and loneliness and bullshit of dealing with not being in control of certain things.

I don't know why I have the feelings that I do sometimes. I just know that I have them, and I do stupid things - illogical things - things that go against every single bit of intelligence and education that I possess because I feel that I don't deserve any better than that.

~*Jodi*~

ryc: LOL. If I knew why I keep playing that game with Mikey, then I wouldn't be asking myself that same question...or all those whys... You say turn away from the feelings but I don't know HOW to do that. Do you?

~*Jodi*~

ryn: Anytime. You never have been one to hold back before.

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I have admitted before that I am slightly bipolar, extremely moody, and probably have borderline personality disorder, along with some post-traumatic stress disorder. Since I have already admitted that before, I don't know why you've told me several times that I need to admit it already. LOL. Am I missing something there?

True love does find us when we aren't seeking it out. In the meantime, there's no reason not to go out with people or talk to people or have crushes or sleep with people or whatever... I am young, but also old. I'm not a spring chicken anymore, and with the way my health is, it's unlikely that I will live 75 years... It's unlikely that I will be able to sit up straight by the time I'm 40 because of the scoliosis and disc degeneration and the way my bones are deteriorating. I have the spine of a 70 year old person. It's not pretty on the inside, even if I am pretty cute on the outside! LOL.

You always seem determined that I am miserable and should stay miserable. Is that what you think?

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how come you aren't writing??

*Stealth Bombshell*

It has been a long time...I left when Bloop crashed...but I used to visit your diary regularly. The name then was Carmilla I believe. Good to see you again Bear...and if you don't recall me that's ok! Like I said, it has been a long time.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

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I hope that you had a fantastic birthday & that all of your wishes came true!

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ryc: SHUDDUP!! yes they did!

*Stealth Bombshell*

Tommy had to double-check to make sure that I wasn't talking about you when I talk about Bear in my diary, so now I call you Bear-Bear when I'm talking to him. LOL! I wondered what you think when you see me talk about someone else called Bear. Did you think I meant you the first time? lol. I never would've expected to know two people nicknamed Bear in my lifetime. I feel so honored.

ryc - I should identify my position? you mean with the guys? I have been very upfront and point-blank said I only see them as friends, just friends, nothing more than friends. I've told both (the other) Bear and my buddy Junior that before. I don't know why they just don't seem to be "getting" it though.

~*Jodi*~

ryc - Did you watch Big Brother last night?! I love how Russell followed Ronnie all over the house for 2 days calling him a "rat" the whole time. I nearly peed on myself! It was so funny!!

~*Jodi*~

Check out this article about Chronic pain and depression... I also posted it in my diary if you would rather read it there.
http://www.everydayhealth.com/depression/chronic-pain-and-depression.aspx?xid=nl_EverydayHealthEmotionalHealth_20090819

ryc - you haven't been reading my entries lately so I didn't figure I was giving away anything by talking about BB. I read about Chima's being expelled on the CBS website - not because I had watched it earlier. They had commercials about it all day yesterday. Did you watch last night? They did it because she destroyed her microphone. She (and Natalie and Lydia) became such HORRIBLE sportsmen when they lost the power of the house. when they were running the house and kicking people out it was cool and they were all happy but when the tables were turned, they showed that they are whiny, bratty, immature, crybaby bitches. I couldn't believe they all cried over effin' Jessie leaving! That's ridiculous. They were acting like he was Jesus reincarnated or some shit. It was really getting on my nerves, and Chima was a huge drama queen. I had hoped that she would get voted out the first week when she was put up as a "pawn" but that didn't happen. I couldn't be around a person like that in my everyday life. I don't know how people deal with her!! I'm glad they got rid of her. Bitch!! LOL!!

~*Jodi*~

P.S. Why don't you write a new entry?? That one is really old. I'd like to know something new about you or what's been going on with you or something. Even if you just write a line about big brother or something.... Just a thought, friend.

You know Tommy deleted himself a while back to "prove a point" but I still don't get what the point was? LMAO.

~*Jodi*~

ryc - Yes, I did not like Chima from day one. There was something about her that had the aire of being "entitled"... lol. She was definitely a "diva" in the worst possible way.

~*Jodi*~

Who do you think they're going to vote off Big Brother tonight?

~*Jodi*~

I was very upset to read that Jeff got voted out. Because I slept so much last night I missed the whole show, so I'll have to watch on my mom's tivo, but I really liked Jeff for some reason, and thought that Jordan only got as far as she did because of Jeff and that she should've been voted out. That sucks.

~*Jodi*~

I am the person at fault. So since I have nothing, there's no point in suing myself. I don't even know if you can do that.

~*Jodi*~

We don't have much control over our sub-conscious, you know that.

~*Jodi*~

I will wear as much or as little lipstick as I want. I'm not trying to impress you or get your approval anyways.

~*Jodi*~

Excuse me? "Always" and "Everything". I don't think you've read all 339 of my entries if you use words like that. I do not talk about that in every single entry, but I do talk about it when I hurt it. You don't EVER write about ANYTHING at all so if you have a problem with what I write why don't you write something of your own? WTF is your problem?

~*Jodi*~