dear diary

07/29/2010

Today was an ok day tiba still is going through it about be here in the shelter which i can understand completely but he act like he is the only one who is aggrevated about being in the shelter i am here just like he is i am here trying to make the best out of a bad situation and on top of being in the shelter he has bi polar and i have to deal with his mood swings like that is easy to deal with and also not having a break from the kids feels like i am about explode if i dont get a break from my reality even if is just for a few days it would be nice all my life has become a total mess and it so hard to clean it i am trying to keep my cool but it seems so hard to stay positive i been going through this struggle for awhile and seems like it is never going to end and here we go again the kids are driving me up the walls oh seriously need a break from this just so i can think and figure out what do with myself i not getting any younger and time is going by and what am i suppose to stuck at this part time job