the you i get to see. | 02/08/2009 |
I'm still texting Grant. I'm kind of losing myself to this crush a little bit. I think about meeting up with all the time. I'm a little obsessed. He texts me while he's out down the pub and drinking with his mates, they give him a bit of stick about texting a girl. lol. Turns out one of his nicknames is G-Spot! Apparently he's the playboy of the group and a bit of a womanizer. That just makes him more appealing! lol. I've been in such a good mood all week, mainly because of Grant. He is actually taking over every part of my life. I cannot go a day without texting or talking to him. I'm just going a bit crazy.
I confided in a work friend, Jodie, about Grant last night, it was so good to talk to someone about him and be honest about how I feel about him. I told her that Grant was a friend of a friend who'd added me on Facebook - like I'd admit I met him on Playstation Home! Jodie knows I'm a bit of a geek, but that's a bit too much information than I'm willing to share with my 'real life' friends. She encouraged me to meet him and see if this could be anything more than a crush. I don't want anything more than friendship, clearly because of James - but I'd love to see what happened if we did meet. I was telling Jodie all the things I knew about him that made me like him, she couldn't blame me really - he has a mysterious, bad boy thing about him that I just cannot resist! lol.
There's been other stuff going on besides Grant stuff! lol. Well, not much more. I weighed myself on our Wii Fit on Wednesday to see how my diet was playing out and if it's making a difference. I'd not weighed myself for four weeks and my Wii Fit was telling me that I'd lost 6lbs! I was a bit shocked and couldn't quite believe it - I don't feel that I look any different, well I didn't until I started to look properly and think about it. I was able to tighten my belt yesterday by one more notch which I've never managed before - that felt like a good achievement.
I'm afraid that my weight loss won't be maintained properly because my appetite hasn't been too good this week anyway and I'm eating a lot less than I really should. I cannot manage to eat anything in full. I feel sick the whole time I eat, especially in the morning and at lunch which is when I need my food the most. I can't finish a whole bowl of cereal and even eating a whole tub of salad at work is a struggle - I end up throwing most of it away. I sometimes take soup to work as well and have some bread to dip in there, the other day I could only just manage the soup and threw the bread in the bin. I really want to be able to eat those things, they're not bad things! It's what I need to eat. Maybe my appetite is off because of Grant and how he makes me feel. I think I'd want to tighten my belt a few more notches before I meet him! lol.
James went to a gym yesterday to look at prices and options for us. He's going to sign us up this week if I give the go ahead. I still need to think about it quite a lot. I need to be sure that I will go because it's a lot of money to waste. I feel awful for thinking this, but in the evenings it's my chance to talk to Grant.......yes it's bad.
Grant is becoming the centre of my universe. All the songs I hear are about him. Ugh! I'm hopeless! lol. ♥
And because I said I'd post a picture of me in my glasses......it's not a good look. lol.
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