Guess who I'm ~liking~ again.
YEP. FUCKING CALEB.
I'm so goddamned tired of this. Yeah, he's pretty fucking adorable. (Except for the redneck stuf...) He isn't dumb, and he is quite nice.
So, I kind of thanked my lucky stars when he started going out with Sarah. Not because she was any form of a good person (I know you're thinking 'just jealous!' but she seriously was like a major ho), but that I could just completely consider him out of the picture. Like, I've heard that women kind of like when hot guys get married? Well I just draw the line earlier.
So anyway, I witnessed the (inevitable) breakup just recently. They actually had gone out for like a year almost, and they made a fairly cute couple. But then, apparently, she did the "you deserve better than me" shit instead of finding the balls to say "I don't like you anymore" or "I like someone else". So I see hit statuses like "I hate crying" and "living in a world so cold," and then he like deletes every wall post of her lovey-dovey shit except two particularly sweet ones.
Uhg, and then there's the thing I saw. I was riding the bus and at my school, it picks up high schoolers, then middle schoolers, then we pass back by the high school on the bus route. Well, when we passed by I saw him in his truck, about to pull on the road. He was just smoking a cigarette with the most devastated and heartbroken expression I think I've ever seen. And though he didn't see me, of course, God I seriously just wanted to be able to do something to make him feel better.
Gahhh.
So then I realize I'm just WAY too invested in all of his business and shit, so I try to ignore looking at all his Facebook stuff. Plus, I don't really see him around school much anymore...except today. Miss James pulled me out to the hall to talk about me teaching the class, and who else but Caleb come walking down the nearly-empty hall just before the final class bell. But not only that, he notices me...then looks at me. And it just felt like one of those somewhat-significant, how-long-have-I-been-staring-back, oh-shit-did-anyone-else-notices moments. GAH.
Fuck being a teenager. |
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