neither here nor there

12/02/2012

hello all...

for some reason I'm in a good mood so thought I'd write an entry. been out tonight for jenna's birthday, went to red hot buffet which was nice, heaving though, not helped by the fact the rugby was on in town & it's close to christmas so loads of work do's going on. but whatever, the food was yummy gonna have to be well careful to make sure i dont gain this or next week as I'm finally back to losing again and cant afford to gain any more!

annabel and i went to the pub after the buffet as the others went to Barry town and I'm skint and annabel just didnt fancy it o.O so we went down the pub for a good catch up as it's been three weeks since i last saw her properly! was good to finally catch up, did a spot of facebook stalking, which reminds me, dave (my ex) is engaged to a girl he's only been with a few weeks =/ i wish him happiness and all but can't help but feel this is kinda...fast...and she seems a bit weird to me. whatever though, I think I only feel this way because he's got a girlfriend and I haven't

I text Helen to ask if this choir performance we're doing on friday is being billed as a gay choir performance and she said not officially, but there is always a possibility it could be mentioned somewhere or by another audience member. so I can't invite my parents...there is no way I want to out myself that way. I really wanted this to be the year that I came clean, so to speak, I'm nearly there but family is always the hardest and there's just no knowing how it'll go down. One minute I'm imagining a scenario where all goes well and nobody gets upset but then on the other hand I keep imagining it'll go horribly and the stress will make my mum ill again and it'll all be my fault


christmas is like 3 weeks away and I'm so poooor...I dont get paid for another fortnight. might go into town tuesday though as I get my tax credits, if only to go into Hamley's toy shop and find the girl I saw working there the other day who was ridiculously hot......

(even though I wouldn't have the courage to talk to her!)

enough now. sleep...