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Doing my best...That's all I can do.
by Just_live

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Tomorrow you'll be thinking to yourself, now were did I

01/25/2009

Well, I have to say, this week has been interesting at best. Let me start with the good and end with the bad.
Yesterday Jake took me out to eat and then we went to see Mall Cop. Which was hilarious. I loved it. I'm still kinda sad that I haven't seen Marley and Me yet. But I will eventually. And it was well worth it to go and see the other one. It was my belated birthday present. lol. He said that he felt bad because we didn't have the money to do anything on my birthday, I told him it didn't matter. But he said that he wanted to. We had a lot of fun.
I swear to god the people at the resturant hate us. They have to. When we were done eating we just sat there and talked for a while and we ended up making this horrible concotion of sweet and sour sauce/ soy sauce/ vanilla pudding/ salt and pepper/ mystery sauce from some horrible meat thing they had with mushrooms/ and something else. And he actually ate some of it. lol. He tasted like the stuff for HOURS. But it was funny to watch his face. He even dipped some of the mystery meat from the mystery sauce with mishrooms in it. YUCK! (Yes I know, we're like five. But it was fun. lol)
They might let him off early tonight too. Which is something to look forward to. At least for me anyway. He said that we could play boggle for FOREVER if they did. lol.
We also talked about the me hanging out with my friends thing. I really haven't got to see much of them lately because I know it bothers him some that i'm friends with mainly guys. (Seriously 95% of my friends are guys.) And I know that he would like to meet them before I do. I want him to meet them to, he just can't ever seem to find the time. And he said that he didn't want him to be the only person that I got to see. He understands that my friends are a really big part of my life, and that they mean a lot to me. And I told him that it meant a lot to me. I guess he thought that when I hung out with them I NEVER wanted him around or anything because he asked if I wanted him there or not when I did. And I was like "hell yeah, why wouldn't I want you there?" lol. Crazy boys.
Were do they come up with this stuff.
He said that he still doesn't like the idea of me hanging out with Tum Tum though. (He left me a comment on myspace and told me that I looked hott in one of my pics.) I guess he still doesn't like him because of that.
I told him that I really wanted them to meet, because Tum Tum is awesome. And I really do think that he would like him. And i've explained to him that he didn't mean anything by it, it's just Tum Tum and we've known each other for forever. But I also understand that it bugs him.
I just hope that he decides to meet him one day.

The bad stuff, is that i'm getting extremely tired of trying to have a positive outlook on stuff. and having people try their hardest to rub their negative nancy shit off on me.
And it's all focused around Jake.
Everytime I go somewere and he's not there because he had other stuff to do, what do I get? "Why aren't you with him? I hope he's not going out on you.. If he cared about you he'd take you with him." All stupid shit. All thrown at me on a constant basis.
It gets old after a while and makes me want to strangle quite a few people for it. Just because it's annoying. And if it's not him, it's something else.
It's almost like i'm some giant target for everyones negativeness and they just keep hurling shit at me. Posioned tipped spears anyone? They want their stupidity to sink and and fester so that I become one of them.
And it isn't going to happen. I've seen what stupidity can do to someone. Hell, i've had my share of stupidity. Only difference is, I learn better from it. They don't.
I told him about it the other night, and me being the stupid girl that I am, got all mad talking about it and started crying because that's what happens when I get to that point of anger. But he hugged me and talked to me about it.
Because he's freaking amazing like that.
Anyway. It's like 2 in the A.M. so i'm going to get off of here.
Much love to the people that matter... and to the ones that don't...well. Later

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