Forgetting you is....impo

I still see your face.
I still hear your voice.
But you are gone.
Never to return.

So where do I go from here?
How do I heal?
Who am I now?
Why?

I have lost everything I was.
I have become someone new.
Still not sure which is better.
Or which is real.

When did everything change?
Do I still exist to you?
What is your world like?
Have you really moved on?

I write these things as they flow into my heart. I won't let them reach my brain. For if they do the thoughts shall shatter all I've worked to make real. All the things I've pushed away will come flowing back at an alarming speed. And I will miss you again. I will ache to feel your arms wrapped around me. I will want to run, run til I can't run any longer. And still, I will be alone. I will continue to miss you. I will continue to hate what I've lost. And I will continue to hate what I've done to us. So my dear, don't think you've affected me again. Its not you that affected me. Only the memories I was left with. Only the good things that I miss. Now I will work to remember the bad. I will make sure that I remember why it all ended again. And I will forget again why I ever loved you and why sometimes, my heart still aches for you.

immortalized artiste