Just a Dreamer.
by screambrandi2012

&'d we know it's never simple, never easy

09/03/2010

Gosh, I really am sorry that I haven't wrote hardly anything in such a long time. School(home bound) is really keeping me busy. I've been spending a lot of time with my boyy, Reed. I've been reading, &'d I've been sick. For the past week I've been sick to my stomach, off &'d on everyday. I don't know why. Maybe it's the cushings syndrome. I have no clue, but I'm getting really annoyed with it, but Reed usually takes care of me whenever I get sick, if he's here. Which he comes down as often as he can. He works &'d goes to school, so we have to just take the time he has. I still haven't finished all of my homework, I have the rest of my English 3 to do. I have to finish it tomorrow because my teacher is coming at noon on Saturday. My friend April is coming over tomorrow night after she gets out of school. I need a girls night. I need a friend to talk to. Fifteen more days until my surgery &'d you have no idea how scared I am. I know that everything will be okay though, I'm leaving it in the hands of God. God can work wonders, I know this for a fact. In the past week I have read Lord of the Flies, Anne Frank Remembered, A Walk To Remember, &'d now I am reading Kiss Of Life, which is the second book in the Generation Dead series. It's really interesting. My mom told me yesterday that I read too much. I told her that reading makes you smarter. Lol. She said yeah but that I needed to rest my eyes some.

Yesterday Reed came over. When he got here we ate supper which consisted of Bagel Bites &'d lasagna. Then after we ate we talked for a little bit &'d then cleaned my room. It still needs a little bit of work done to it, but other than that, it looks a whole lot better than it did. I've still got to organize my books &'d everything. I don't think I'll ever get to that, haha. I don't have any room to put any of my books. I also need to organize &'d go through my make up. I'm sure that I have some that needs to be thrown away. Anyway, then me &'d my boy watched America's Got Talent with my mom. He actually likes spending time with my family &'d I love it.

It makes me so happy. Then we layed on my bed for a little while to rest, &'d then we watched some of the news with mom, then he had to leave because he had school this morning at eight.

Today was pretty longg. I woke up at like seven something because Minnie wouldn't quit whining &'d she was giving me a headache. I ate breakfast &'d checked my game on facebook. Then I read on the love seat for a little while, &'d Minnie slept on me while I read. Then I worked on my English 3 homework. I did two sections, now I have one more section, &'d an essay to do. I have to do it tomorrow morning. Then I have to study for chapter 15 in American History. I'm not doing too well in that class, but I am determined to pull my grade up since I know how the teacher does her tests now. We got groceries today. I got to see Reed whenever he got out of school &'d we hung out until he had to go to work. I'm so happy that we are together, he makes me so happy. My family loves him, &'d everything is going great. (: He is always complimenting me &'d everything. He knows that I hate the way that I look because of all the weight gain from the cushings &'d he is always telling me that I'm beautiful.

Yeah, my surgery is coming up so fast. September 16. I am so nervous &'d so scared. Eight hour surgery &'d they said that I'd probably be in the hospital for five days or more because they have to watch me closely. They said to make sure I had pajamas &'d slippers &'d everything. A lot of my family is going to be there. Reed wants to be there, but he has work &'d school &'d I don't want him to have to worry about missing anything, &'d at his work they said that no one could ask off because they are needing more workers, I told him that I understood. He's going to be there when I get home &'d he said he'd help take care of me while I'm recovering. His birthday is September 29. He'll be twenty. I have no clue what to get him. My cousin's birthday is September 7. I've got to figure out what to get him, too. I think he's going to be 22. I don't remember. That's bad. Lol. All the doctors are saying that they've never heard of a case like mine(Cushings Syndrome) because I am so young &'d it's so rare for someone my age to get it. I'm glad that they figured out that this is what I have. I have great doctors at Vanderbilt. I love them, they know what they are doing.

But I'm going to stop here, I'll hopefully type some tomorrow. I'm going to try. I've had a busy past few weeks. Comments would be appreciated.