I don't want to kill myself. I don't want to die. But sometimes the idea of going to sleep and just not waking up again sounds almost pleasant. I hate constantly thinking and worrying and hating myself. I just want to be able to live in the moment. I want to be able to wake up smiling and go to bed smiling.
I want to be able to enjoy my hobbies, pursue my dreams, and have meaningful relationships without it being a constant struggle to hold it together.
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