Jina..

09/11/2009

I wanted to write to you now when I am completly sober and not drunk or high.

The reason that I wanted to talk to you on the phone is what I am about to say right here and just hope that you will please read it.

I don't really know how to say what I want to say, but I think that you appreciate honesty so I'm just going to say it and then it's out there and not bottled up inside of me anymore. Im not going to miss out on my own life anymore, and if I don't talk to you about this then I'll regret it forever.

I really care for you, and it is a bit freaked me out at first because we haven't known each other very long, and were both girls ( not that it matters to me but it might to you ) I know that you said you can't be with someone right now because you're too messed up and I had a response to that but it never seemed to come out right so I found a song that describes it perfectly. I know, cheesy, but..It's exactly what I feel about you. It's 'Never gonna be alone' by Nickleback. Ill put the lyrics at the end here. Basically, I am just asking you to think about something.

If it's ME and you just didn't want to tell me then tell me right now and I will go away. If it is really because you feel that you're too messed up then I just want you to know something..You are worth going through anything thats wrong with. I told you when I met you, you're special. You have something that everyone can see is special but..There's pain too. Lots of it. That's life, but you don't have to go through it alone. Tomorrow is never a garuntee and I had to tell you. If you get something out of this, just know that I respect and admire you so much. I will always care about you no matter what. Nothing could change that. I owe you so much for listening to me when I was there ab0out my mother and telling me that I was beautiful. Its because of you that I am better now. Inside.

We both felt something between us, and whatever that is..i would like to know..to find out what it is. its not every day that i care for someone liike this.

you are worth so much more than you know. just..tell me what you think. if its me that you dont like in that way then tell me..its alright. but if its not..i dont know what im trying to say.

please read these lyrics. its also my profile song on here. the chorus especially is what i was trying to say but couldnt. its an awesome song. you are wonderful. dont let anyone ever tell you that you arent. no matter what you decide..no matter how mad you get at me for this..ill always care. im always here if you need anything..even if its just a friend. i love you Jina. Heres the song..

[Verse 1]
Time, is going by, so much faster than I,
Now I'm, wondering why, I've kept this bottled inside,
So I'm starting to regret not telling all of it to you.
So if I haven't yet, I've gotta let you know...

[Chorus]
You never gonna be alone!
From this moment on, if you ever feel like letting go,
I won't let you fall...
Your never gonna be alone!
I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone.

[Verse 2]
And now, as long as I can, I'm holding on with both hands,
'Cause forever I believe that there's nothing I could need but you,
So if I haven't yet, I've gotta let you know...

[Chorus]
You never gonna be alone!
From this moment on, if you ever feel like letting go,
I won't let you fall.
When all hope is gone, I know that you can carry on.
We're gonna see the world on,
I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone.

[Verse 3]
Ooooh!
You've gotta live every single day,
Like it's the only one, what if tomorrow never comes?
Don't let it slip away,
Could be our only one, you know it's only just begun.
Every single day,
Maybe our only one, what if tomorrow never comes?
Tomorrow never comes...

[Verse 4]
Time, is going by, so much faster than I,
And I'm starting to regret not telling all of this to you.

[Chorus]
You never gonna be alone!
From this moment on, if you ever feel like letting go,
I won't let you fall.
When all hope is gone, I know that you can carry on.
We're gonna see the world on,
I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone.

I'm gonna be there all along the way
I won't be missing one more day
I'm gonna be there all along the way
I won't be missing one more day