These people tell me to let go, tell me to move on. They don't comprehend and they never could. This is the deepest kind of pain. I am ill and I am infested with a snake like creature that is documented on tape so shut up people who would call me crazy. Anyways, they tried to infect me, tried to put this in me, tried to essentially scalp my soul. And I stupidly offered it up one drunken night years before I knew the reality of any of the evil in this world. If God is up there, then I am forgiven. It unfortunately does not lessen my pain. And it has taken me over a year to realize something. Regardless of what Patties sister and mother say, her '' accident '' was neither an accident nor was it my fault. It was terrible and it was needless but she wasn't supposed to love me I guess. Went off script. I love her. I really do. I have never ever had a problem ( more than you would expect ) in not talking to her IF THAT IS WHAT SHE TOLD ME. I only have heard it through people that I do not 100% trust. They don't allow her to speak for herself and they are commiting a crime. I may seem all broken and passive and oh I miss her but you have no idea who you are dealing with. I would never hurt anyone that was not actually attacking me so this is not a threat. But I promise if anything happens...I do know who to blame and its not just who you'd think. They work together, the idiots in this circle. I am awake. I am aware. I am alive. And there is nothing you can do about it until God says so because I am a true child of the Creator. Sick of this bullshit. Sick of it all. You have no right to do what you are doing, so cease and desist immediately. Or dont. But just cuz i dont say much doesnt mean Im not doing much. God will take vengence. His way. Thats all Im saying. Have a good night everyone.