Last weekend my ex girlfriend, who has remained in love with me for the past 3 years, decided to tell me she was over me 'in passing' via a text message. She compared her girlfriends feelings for her ex boyfriend to how she felt about me. That was a slap in the face. While I've always said I am not in love with her, we have also always agreed that we have an unexplained special bond between us, and an overwhelming sexual desire for each other. She pretty much told me that she didn't want me. At. All. Ouch. Then she actually didn't speak to me for a two days. By the time we finally talked again I was upset and angry. It turned into a huge fight that lasted a couple more days. We were fighting, but discussing things at the same time. We got the issue mostly resolved and stopped fighting. We've been talking, calmly usually, ever sense and working out what is going on between us.
My husband has decided that he is okay with an open marriage, polyamory, whatever you want to identify it as where I am permitted to have a girlfriend, and he is too if he ever decides to. He actually found a book for us to read together that is supposed to help him with learning to deal with jealousy (which he actually has very little of anyways) and teaches me to communicate better, and the both of us to understand the wants needs and desires of the other, while putting our marriage first. I hate self help books, and this is a close fit. It should be interesting though. |
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