Absentmindedly

The only good thing was that a few of my co-workers really appreciated it. Like Jared and Tommy kept saying how they were glad I was there, and that they were willing to help and everything. Jared was even kind enough to say that he was glad I was there because there are so many stupid people at work that he was glad someone smart was there. He also said that he didn't want me stressed and asked if there was anything else he could do.

It is all David's fault. Any other supervisor would have helped more than he did. But nope, he just waddled along not really giving a duck's nuts about anything. God how I hate him. I really do. Screw the fact that he let me go early. It is hard to explain. See I've been working 8-9 hour shifts every Saturday and Sunday. Now it doesn't bother me when another supervisor, like Laura, keeps me there and I don't get to leave early. I dunno... maybe she just makes it enjoyable or something. Well, I know she makes it enjoyable. But I just don't care as much. But David, I just want to get the hell out of there.

God, I had such a headache earlier too. I never get headaches, which is why it is so weird. And actually I still have it bit too. But god, I hate headaches, and I seriously never get them. Except for a few flash headaches where they come and go really fast and then I am perfectly fine again.

But man I hate people. I really do. I mean they are just idiots and I hate them. I wish... oh I don't know. I just wish people would be nicer to each other. I try not to be grumpy at work. I mean, it isn't going to make the day any better to be grumpy. Now, you piss me off and then I will be a bitch. But before then I am perfectly fine. I like to smile. I like to be happy. So why get all pissy over working when you don't have to.

That is the thing I don't get. There are some people at work that just want to be miserable. They just want to stand there and do their work and nothing else. Well, I guess they aren't exactly miserable. They could enjoy not communicating with people. All the power to them, just tell me not to talk to you. But why would you want to be miserable? What do you gain from that in the end? If I am not enjoying it I am not going to bother to do it very good. That is all there is too it.

I guess... what I really wish is that people were happy. Yeah, I do really hate people sometimes. But maybe if everyone just stopped and looked at things or just relaxed and enjoyed things for what they were they wouldn't be so cranky and we could all be a little bit happier.

I know, I know. This is one of my super long rants where I am really talking about nothing. But I have had this urge to write all day and I haven't. So this comes out instead. And it is way to late now to start actually writing. Mainly because it is like 12:20AM and I should be in bed, but I'm not. Oh well.

Or maybe it is because I am listening to Fearless by Taylor Swift over and over again. Truthfully, I just don't know. But I suppose my day wasn't so bad. I am not going to go through all of the details of the crappy last 3 hours of my work day. Just know that was horrible. I found out that people really do appreciate me. If everyday could be like that it would be perfect.

Oh yeah, the only problem is that I decided that I am not going to talk tomorrow. At all. I am serious. I went 2 hours without talking like 2 weeks ago. I am not going to talk. One of my friends, Kealy, told me not to talk to her for the rest of the night on Friday. First she told me at school and I just took it as a joke. Then I went to the basketball game that night and she sat by me and my other friend and told me not to talk to her. I think she was still joking but I don't care. I am just so annoying - I guess - that I just won't talk. Let's see how they like it then. Well I might talk during 2nd period but that is only because it is just myself, the teacher and one other kid in the class, so that doesn't really count. That would be plain rude not to talk in there, but I will try. And 3rd period... Brian is in 3rd period and I wanna talk to him. So I just won't talk to my friends and in the classes they are in... that is it.

Oh, it is complicated. But I am will only talk like in 2nd and 3rd periods and that is it. Nothing else. If they don't want me to talk on Friday then, hell, I won't talk Monday. See how they like silence. It sounds crazy. But then again I am crazy so it all works out. I just hate being told to shut up and that I am annoying. Every time I debate whether or not I should stop talking I keep thinking about what Jared said one day. He had told me that I should be myself and that I shouldn't change for anybody and that people should accept me for me. I told him that I am annoying and that it isn't good. And he told me that people have called him annoying too but he doesn't stop. It is just who he is. I don't know. Maybe that is why I like him. But it is not the point. I am not talking tomorrow...er... today and that is final. At least not at school.

Yep... I think that is it. I can't think of anything else to say. At all. I am brain dead and no longer have the urge to write anymore. Which is good, and bad. Because I do want to write, I just can't decide what I want to write about. Oh well, good night ya'll.