I'd rather think about you

11/11/2012

(bryan adams, I think about you)


I ought to be working - but i can't concentrate
I ought to be sleeping - instead of staying up late
when I ought to be doing all the things I should do
I think about you

I ought to be writing - but I can't find the song
just sitting here drifting - drifting along
there's only one thing that I wanna do
and that's think about you

I think about you - I can't get no rest
I think about you - there ain't no one else
It's all I can do - I can't help myself
ya - I think about you

I could go cruising - but I've had enough
I could go drinking - but I can't stand the stuff
It just don't do me like it used to do
I'd rather think about you

I think about you - I can't get no rest
I think about you - there ain't no one else
It's all I can do - I can't help myself
ya - I think about you
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Watching football with my family
I'm not me
Dinner time and I'm not hungry
Not even for Chinese
It just doesnt feel right
I'm not alright

I sort my laundry
Listen to Bon Jovi
I work out
But my heart pouts
Try to get my mind off of you
But there is nothing I can do
Cause I love you

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I'm feeling sad, lonely, alone, scared ... and no one in my family noticed a damn thing.

and it also doesnt help my sister put me down today for being blind. my twin said something that made me feel small and my parents make me feel like a little child.
And my cousin Heidi, hmm she just irratates me. My uncle Joe made me feel stupid on FB.
AND NO, this is not just today, I just dont write about it because it would just sound like a broken record playing over and over and over...

I showed my sibs the blow glass baseball with my name is braille that Karen made for me and I showed them the bat from the louisville slugger musuem, they just looked at it and said "oh that's nice" and carried on with their conversations.

I know that everything could be so much more different if I was ... you know.

I left my heart in Indiana