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an empty frame.'s Diary
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I'm not dead yet

06/18/2010

I've moved house, and finally set up the broadband connection. Thank god, because Luke was getting antsy without access to his email. At least that is what he says. We had no phone either. I've stopped working for the week, because I have a coldsore. We spent $500 at Target on bedsheets, and most of the stuff we bought was on sale. We wanted to sex up our new bedroom with some new sexy sheets. I didn't realise how much sexy bed sheets can cost... But our bedroom is very sexy now. All we need now is a mirror on the ceiling. Or not.

I've also made Gabriel's bedroom pretty cute and exciting for him but he refuses to go in it and is instead sleeping in my bed, when he does sleep over (we've been here a week now so that's just once but I have a feeling this will happen every time he stays over for several months if not years), which means I have to kick Luke out and make him sleep in the single bed in Gabriel's room. Ha! Sucks to be a sex offender! Nah, I kid. He's not a sex offender. God, that was awful. I shouldn't joke about that shit.

Obviously I'm in a bad mood with Luke and am saying things about him I'm going to regret but whatever, I don't care right now.

My submissive is on the verge of breaking up with me, too. We're on a break at the moment. Initiated by him. Because he can't handle love. It's like that song by Bjork. Great! My love life can be summed up with songs by Bjork. But this is the third day now that I've not been able to talk to him and it sucks to my assmar.

Hm I wonder if Woolies will deliver to our house... I've completely forgotten our new postcode but I'm pretty sure it doesn't begin with a "16"... that would be insane, surely! Surely just insane. Oh! I got a text message on my phone. Who is it by, I wonder? *checks* Oh, it's by iiNet saying that my broadband service has been set up. Well, duh. But thanks anyway. Oh, fuck! I forgot to pick up my other phone from the shop. You know, my SEX PHONE. Well, not my sex phone. Just my phone I use when people who want to pay to have sex with me need to call me to set up an appointment.

*yawn* My allergies have gone to hell in this house. Turns out me and carpet do not mix. Turns out I'm hideously allergic to carpet and my eyes have been bloodshot for three days. So I need to vacuum every day which Luke finds hilarious. He loves making me do housework because I'm really very, very bad at it. And I hate doing it. Anybody with ADHD or anybody who lives with someone who has ADHD knows that we are just totally incapable of keeping a house clean, even if it means waking every day with allergies so bad even your brains are itchy. He finds it easy to do, so it's not a big deal when I can't get it done, but I try. God, I would love to be a service sub. But I just suck at it. I wanna be a service sub! I wanna cook and clean and make him happy! But the harder I try, the more upset I get when it doesn't happen. I am just way too fucking retarded. To function. Like a normal human being. Egh. I hate me. Hardcore. Bro.

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ah that sucks that carpet is screwing your allergies up.

i hope your sub can sort himself out.

[& skull.Star|0 likes] [|reply]

THAT'S BECAUSE I NOTED YOU ON OPENDIARY ALREADY! What, you want I should repost it?
I kind of really want to see your bedroom? I am going to move next weekend and I need to figure out how to decorate stuff. But I'm still doing the minimalism thing.
I think I'd be a good service sub, since that's how I act with my roommate now, haha. Sigh. How are you going to live there if you're constantly allergic to the carpet?!

[theboyontheroof|0 likes] [|reply]

Well it's pretty much all black with bits of red here and there. But... yeah, it's basically all black. haha. The bed frame is black uhh... metal... it's black metal!! What do they call it? Black coated steel? Cast iron? LOL I have no idea about these things. But it's all swirly and so is the lamp on the left-side bedside table, which is not the side that I sleep on. The lamp on my side fell on the floor days ago *lol* and is still there. I want the swirly lamp!! The bedside tables are black, too... and other than that there's nothing else in the room apart from all the clothes on the floor. Oh and the box with my hair straightener in it and hair dryer which hasn't been unpacked yet because I haven't left the house to go anywhere other than clinic and I don't feel the need to have non-crazy hair when I go make my appointments in the mad house.

I think you'd be an excellent service sub. You'd be the best!

I've lived with carpet before, I just got used to not having it as my last two houses were tiled. I'm just going to have to vacuum constantly. Oh, snap! I had a dream that my vacuum cleaner broke!!! LOL, I FORGOT ABOUT IT UNTIL JUST THEN. Who dreams about their vacuum cleaner? I do! Anyway, it's actually dust I'm allergic too, so as long as the house is dust-free... Just harder to keep it dust free when there's carpet. I vacuumed today though and I already feel better.

You'd be a good service sub. Come to Australia and service me. Mrawrrrr!

[an empty frame.|0 likes] [|reply]

Who is Gabriel? Your stepson?

[xo heatherStar|0 likes] [|reply]

Yep! Giovanni's son and my stepson and Giovanni also goes by "Jeeves" in my entries. lol. Just to erm... what's the word... ah, fuckit, it's 3:30 in the AYE EM.

[an empty frame.|0 likes] [|reply]

I'll try to remember that LOL.

[xo heatherStar|0 likes] [|reply]

1. its probably the dust IN the carpet. when we renovated and switched to hardwood, my allergies disappeared.
2. I work at a daycamp with kids with ADHD, its awesome. sometimes stressful, but 100% awesome

[- misseriin*Star|0 likes] [|reply]

Kids with ADHD are all good and well, but it's when they grow up and become completely useless adults with no life skills that the suckage begins. Please teach those kids how to organise their days and weeks and how to manage their time and teach them how to cook without forgetting what they're doing only to return to half their kitchen on fire half an hour later and teach them how to study without freaking out so bad they give themselves an anxiety disorder, and they should be fine. God knows medication doesn't teach them that shit.

[an empty frame.|0 likes] [|reply]

Thats my camp!
We teach them the skills they need as children, and as they grow up into adults. I saw some of my kids from last year and oh my god, I noticed an immediate improvement as soon as I saw them!

[- misseriin*Star|0 likes] [|reply]

Damn, I wanna go on your camp! When I was diagnosed (I have inattentive type, so without the hyperactivity, although I'm really hyper now as a result of my caffeine addiction lol... but yeah, I was diagnosed when I was like 13 I think. Seen the movie Thumbsucker? Story of my life! Get diagnosed, get given drugs, and all of a sudden you shoot to the top of the class, realise hey, I'm actually kind of intelligent when I'm not staring out the window looking for the lawn mower I can hear from forever away... Um, but yeah, I totallyz failz at lyfe as an adult.

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