I almost left for the grocery just now wearing pyjama pants and a jacket, no t-shirt. By accident, I mean. And the number of times I arrive at clinic only to realise I've forgotten to put on shoes that day... oooohhh boy. I will just go on inside barefoot and if anyone looks at my feet I'm like, "SHUT UP I HAVE ADHD I FORGOT MY SHOES." I do suck in the putting-on-clothes department. I otherwise spend my days at home half dressed. I don't leave the house very often. Yes I am a bit of a recluse.
The other day I was talking to my psych about the way I used to be. I almost cried. I don't miss all the parties and all of the friends I had. I've never been one to value a large number of friends that you only see on weekends while pissed (drunk, for you non-Aussies). I miss my youth, that's all. I knew I would. When I was young I never wanted to grow up. It was basically my biggest fear. I didn't want to turn 20. And now I'm in my mid-twenties and I'm exactly what I knew I would be. A shell of the person I used to be.
However I still have my close friendships. Not with the same people. And they seem to think I'm pretty awesome, so maybe I still am. Am I awesome? Say yes. lol.
At least I still have my ROCKIN' GOOD LOOKS ... Oh wait, no. Damn.
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