So Nick and I finally got a divorce I am so happy about that. I really want to have kids and with my miscarriage history I wonder if I will ever have any, babies is some thing I want more then anything. Chris and I are still together we don't always get along but things are better, but chris told me he don't want kids so now I may have to choose between him and my desire to be a mom, I really don't know what will happen maybe chris will change his mind about being a parent. Chris and I may not get married at all I am not sure I want to and if we do get married it wont be for a long time. More updates when I can.