The dog days are NOT over, but I am doing okay.
I have not had time to go to the doctor to get my tests done, because my mother's car is fucked. I just want to make sure that everything is alright.
On the good hand, I went for my job interview yesterday and it went pretty well! The recruitment agency said that they will get back to me. So now I am just waiting patiently and trying to gain the patience. I need a job so badly. This is for a goods receiving clerk at the Golf Shop close by to me, I think I will need a little training but I think I will do a very good job there. I just can't wait for them to get back to me and let me know if I have the job.
Another good thing, I have a photoshoot here at my place with a photographer on Friday to expand my portfolio. I hope that goes well.
I am seeing Stuart tomorrow, a high school friend. He is in the area and asked if I would like to go for coffee, so I am really excited as we never really see eachother and I think it would be great to see him again.
I guess you could say we have a little bit of a history, or, well, I do.. with him. LOL... He was kinda my high school crush for a little while until I ended up sleeping with him and that helped me get over the guy pretty quickly. Lmao.
Anyway, I still think he is really sweet (as a friend) and would love to keep in touch.
Kyle did not get his full time contract extended, so unfortunately he is now on the job market too, needless to say, between the both of us, we need to find some cash flow lol! There is no income between the two of us, gets kinda scary lol.
I would like to move out the house as soon as I can, I would just like to be responsible for myself from now on.... its so frustrating having to constantly rely on people for everything.
I am still not sleeping very well, still waking up very early morning or going to sleep early morning, or just not sleeping at all. I have been having a bit of an anxiety problem lately, I am really freaking out over the tiniest things!
Driving at night - anxious about a hijacking
walking on the street - anxious about a mugging
sleeping in my bed - anxious about a robbery
going shopping - anxious about robbery
interacting with people - anxious about getting sick
interacting with people - anxious about absorbing the wrong energy
I struggle to be in a room with too many people,
I am just struggling to be around people in general.
I feel so drained and so sad when I am with people, I prefer to be with one or two people only.
It must be an empath problem |
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