So I got back with Ricky before Christmas time because I couldn't stand being apart from him, we had a really good Christmas and New Years which was our anniversary. So we've been going out a year and 2 months now. We've been so happy together except now it feels like we are falling apart once again but this time it would be for good I do love him but arguements have gotten worse lately and I don't know what to do or say to him to make it better, there's times I hardly see him anymore as he goes to his friends house all time..I know he's there and he not lying about his whereabouts so I know he's not with another girl. But things have been said and I think it's time to just let it go..say goodbye but how to do it without him flipping out and thinking things...doesn't mean I love him any less. My life feels like a right mess ATM, I feel so lost and empty sometimes and I shouldn't feel like this. I'm in love with him but lately I've been feeling like I'm falling out of love alittle bit every time we argue. We both say hurtful things and I'm sure some of which we actually mean but it's hard to tell. Talk about a toxic relationship or what. but even though I love him so much it hurts, I shouldn't..I mean we shouldn't be in this relationship together. I would have loved for us to end on good terms but too much shit has happened and I doubt we will be able to be friends..sounds like I know what I need to do but it's hard and I just don't know what to say or how to start the conversation.