Have you seen Frozen? I'm sure you have. And if you haven't, you should. I have this song stuck in my head...
"Do you wanna build a snowman?
Come on, lets go and play!
I never see you anymore
Come out the door
It's like you've gone away!
We used to be best buddies
And now we're not
I wish you would tell me why!
Do you wanna build a snowman?
It doesn't have to be a snowman..."
Gah.
Ryan texted me the other day on kik messenger. The funny thing is a while ago, I downloaded kik just to send him a message and he never responded. I didn't really think he would, but it was a moment of weakness. I just wanted to talk to him. I guess what it was really was that feeling of not knowing what to do with yourself after losing someone you used to rely on. I was so used to being able to talk to him, even if we didn't have the best conversations, that I felt like I needed to talk to him in general. When he messaged me, all he said was hello. We literally had a 10 line conversation of hello, hey, how are things, things, are good, that's great- end of dialogue. I don't know how I feel about it. In a way, I wish he'd send me another message. I wish we could actually talk and be completely honest, and maybe even be friends. But that won't happen, and a bigger part of me is glad that brief conversation was all it was.
Wow, I'm really sucking at this today.
I thought I would have more to say, but suddenly I'm drawing a blank.
I smell kind of funny. I'm going to go take a shower.
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Awkward |
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