It's a Steve!
by Steve

Location: Saint Johns, MI
Birthdate: 06/06/1985
Gender: Male

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Birthday and Dad

06/06/2010

Well, it's my birthday.

Yesterday (Saturday) I went to Ohio with my friend Steve. (yes, we have the same names)

Before we left, he went to visit his mum's grave stone. I just watched as he laid next to her for a minute, he kissed the ground and her grave stone. I get the feeling that something big changes inside a person when one of their parents dies, but I forget how I was before the age of 7.

I miss my dad so much. I am just heart broken, I'll never see him again. It's just a pain that I can't describe, it literally rips me apart inside. I know we all have to say goodbye some day, but why didn't I even get to spend some of my childhood with him. Why didn't I get to argue in my teenage years. Why don't I have the memories I want so badly?

If there's a birthday present I'd want more than ever, it'd be to see my dad for just 1 minute. To just see him, in person, and tell him that I love him. And that I'm so, so sorry, that he had to leave. That he didn't get to meet my wife, or his beautiful grandchild Charli. That he has missed out on so much.

I guess that's all.

** Has recently given up losing weight after realising that with an ass the size of his, physics probably has a law against reduction in mass. Kind of like a black hole, except every now and then it expels some gas. **

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Happy Birthday...sorry you miss your dad so much. =( I'm sure he's looking down on you though. [fears.on.fire Star ] [reply]

Happy Birthday(again).

I lost my dad in 2004, I occasionally think about him, but I know I'll be an emotional mess when the day comes that my mom passes. [•Chancellor St.Blue• Star ] [reply]

Happy Birthday Steve! I cannot imagine the pain of losing a parent. My childhood best friend lost her father when she was eight years old. That is traumatic, but you already know that. [xo heather Star ] [reply]

Happy birthday, I'm sorry about your Dad [Aly] [reply]

happy birthday steve. I am sorry about your dad.

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=( I'm so sorry to hear about your dad, Steve. I can only imagine how painful that might be.

Happy birthday for today though. I'm sure your dad wishes you the same. =)
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Happy birthday. *hugs* [-tempy] [reply]

i am in my sixteenth year without my dad and i still cry when i think about him...which is a lot of the time.

I know how you are feeling xo [~*Pagan*~ Star ] [reply]

Aww
But happy birthday! [Acid Fairy Star ] [reply]

Happy birthday. [amy Star ] [reply]

Happy birthday [*Amour De Bebe* Star ] [reply]

Happy Birthday homie.

I feel your pain... lost my dad in 1993. I think it is one of those things that you can never get over. [Dr. Hannibal Lecter Star ] [reply]

Happy Birthday Steve. You and your dad will be re-united one day, I just know it.

♥Lacy [foreverglow] [reply]

Happy Birthday! [Kerri♥Blue Star ] [reply]

My dad lost his dad at age 9. Maybe this is how he feels sometimes. His memories he has of him are slim, but he still thinks of him and talks about him. You'll see him again, I know it. *hugs*

Oh, and btw. Happy birthday!! See you soon! [Becoming Mrs. Bailey Star ] [reply]

Happy Birthday Steve!

I'm sorry your dad can't be there with you. I'm sure he loves you and he's proud of you. [~*Peace of Mind*~ Star ] [reply]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!
That is sad about your dad and that he is missing out on your life with your family but I always like to think they are looking down on us now and they are seeing what we do with our lives

Take care and Have a great day.
Love,
Jess
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Happy birthday, motha' trucka'. [Anonymous Source Star ] [reply]

Happy Birthday babe (again). I love you. And you know, I can't give you one minute with your dad to look in the eyes, but I have this one picture:

And I think we should go see a medium again, and maybe you can talk your dad. I'm sure you'd both love that.

I love you. And I hope you had a good day today. xx [kel-sy Star ] [reply]

Happy Belated Birthday. I'm sure your Dad has "met" your wife and daughter...they just haven't met him yet! [Mommy_Bunny] [reply]

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