So, my ENTIRE life I have been notorious for showing up late for pretty much everything. In all reality Im either VERY early or VERY late. There is hardly ever any in between. That is no exception when it comes to work. Prior to moving to SC (just 2.5 months ago) from GA I worked in home health so I had a VERY flexible schedule. If I was running late it was no big deal b/c I could just move patients around. I LOVED that job. I MOURNED (I still am to a degree) losing that job when I moved. Fast forward to my current job of supervisor for the medicaid program located in Michigan (we have a satelite office here in SC) and it is a VERY structured environment. Its not like a plantation or anything but they expect crazy things like you to be on time (who knew that was a requirement for most jobs! HA!). So, as my story goes I have been late a number (read 7) times since starting here 2.5 months ago. My administrator has really been super flexible with me b/c I lived in such a small town the traffic in Charleston has been a very hard adjustment for me *insert excuses for being late*. My admin is a very nice but "by the book" woman. Which, oddly enough I appreciate most days.
I work 18 miles from my front door. In my amazing state and town in GA this trip would have taken me 20 min (25 on a BAD day). However, this 18 mile trip take anywhere between 30 min to....eternity. It really depends on when you leave, the amount of people who cant drive, the wrecks, and now that school is in...LAWD BABY JESUS HELP ME!!! Due to all the above mentioned factors I was 10 min late for work yesterday. Granted, I left my house at 650am which, in MY innocent mind was more than plenty of time to get to my office by 8am. WRONG!!!
I got to work frazzled, in a panic attack, fearful I was gonna get fired (after all this was the 8th or 10th time I had been late. But, whos counting. right? My admin! Thats who!!) and almost in tears. I went straight to my admin and proceeded to have verbal diahrea regarding the woes of my commute. She was less than sympathetic. Seems as if she comes from near where I live and made it to work on time as did the other women I work with and supervise. So....my arguement was invalid. Even though I was able to pull up the traffic report online. *sigh*
I ended up getting my 1st written warning for being tardy with a stern "talking too" regarding the fact that I cant supervise and write up people for doing exactly what I am doing. Shes RIGHT. Unfortunatley when I get really anxious, mad, or nervous my chin quivers and I cry. *stupid stress response* So, OFCOURSE I start crying in her office and tell her Im TRYING and I WANT to be the best supervisor and employee blah, blah,blah. After I calmed down we looked at the way I was coming to work. She helped me find a new and FASTER way to get here. Yes, I still have to leave my house at 640am to be here by 8am but the way she showed me actually got me here VERY early, like 722am early.
My early arrival gave me time to get a good parking spot, read my daily devotional, spend time in prayer, then go into my office and spend a few min socializing w my coworkers and the women I supervise. I have been complaining about how I felt so lonely here and hadnt really made any "friends" at work. Mainly b/c Im running in here at the last min or late and bolt out of here right at 5pm b/c I am ready to get home. So, the silver lining is I was ALOT less frazzled this morning, my admin was happy with me, and I got to socialize with some of the women. *win, win*
I dont want to brag too much b/c Im afraid I will jinx it tomorrow. But, I was happy it worked out this morning. For today, I got to work early and things where less chaotic. Today, starting my day off less chaotic and with God made all the difference for me. #OneDayAtATime
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