I dont know whats gonna happen anymore?Tiff told me just recently she likes fucking guys and im only good at oral 4 her sexually..and she'd wants me to let her fuck "our friend" alone she doesnt even want me there she says its not good or fun that way.i told her id alow her 2 fuck him only as a 3some though with me.Cuz 2 me sex is suposed 2 involve the couple so im trying 2 invovle both of us but shes says she dont like it we've only done the 3some twice since we had our discusion about it...we've done 3somes a lot b4 but thats b4 i found out she prefers guys,i dont think thats 2 much 2 ask she still gets her way she gets 2 fuck a guy but im involved but shes putting up a fight about it she hates the idea of me going.We had another talk 2 i found out she doesnt want 2 get married she said she hasnt been ready she only said she was cuz she didnt want 2 say no cuz she didnt want 2 hurt my feelings and she didnt want a family just yet either and we have a 2nd baby on the way 2.I just wish she would of said something sooner b4 we got 2 far into our relationship,now we r both unhappy we barely have a sex life and we r going on our 3rd yr anniversary.Ive called her my wife 4 almost 2yrs now and now shes just my girlfriend 'thats so hard 2 say' i put our engagement and promise rings in a box yesterday she hasnt worn hers in over 2months now and i took mine off the day she said she wants him for sex and me for just going down on her the next day she told me she hasnt been ready 2 marry me...this is so hard 2 say but i think that maybe god is telling us we arent meant 4 each other...ive always loved her and always will but i dont want her 2 be unhappy like she is but being with me i want her 2 want me especially sexually isnt that what a relationship is?I want 2 be with some1 who wants me sexually and in every kind of way 2,and some1 who thinks of my feelings and cares about them and some1 who will give me my way sometimes..but all think about is her and being with her i love her so fukin much it hurts and i cant think of being with any1 else and i dont want any1 else SHES THE 1 I WANT ESPECIALLY SEXUALLY...but she wants him 4 sex and i cant stand it but theres nothing i can do but i want her 2 be happy and ive always given her everything and she expects me 2 give her this but i cant i dont want 2 give her this and i dont think i will..i think she just wants 2 be with a man period she even told me she prefers guys over girls anyways..she says she wants 2 be with me and wants 2 stay with me but she wants him 4 sex.. i honestly dont see that working with us sex is important in a relationship and im only gonna alow 3somes ocasionaly not all the time so that will piss her off and we'll be fighting all the time i just wish i knew what 2 do...she even called and canceled my new weding band 4 our wedding we were gonna have in about a yr it wasnt a set date yet though but we were planning it...these past 2 wks have sucked i feel like shit i thought our life was going so good we're buying a big trailer 2 live in,a baby.another on the way,our wedding,we own a car together,a beautiful wife "well girlfriend now",and it went down the tubes in a matter of 2wks my god im so depressed at least she told me now and not another 3yrs from now when we actually were married and putting our family threw a divorce and more fighting.All i can think about is her and where i went wrong and y she wants him more than me shes always told me im great at sex oral and the other we have toys and strap-ons she said im all she ever needed 4 anything but that was when we 1st got 2gther b4 we ever had a 3some..GOD i just wish i knew what 2 do im so upset about this i have been since she told me this..all ive ever needed is her or ever wanted sexually and everything..i guess thats gonna have 2 change soon real soon cuz we arent gonna be able 2 go on like this niether 1 of us r hapy with this arrangement..im so scared though cuz i know whats gonna happen we r gonna have 2 seperate and im so afraid we wont get back 2gthr,but i wont let her fuck him alone and im not gonna alow 3somes all the time like she wants and she wont go 4 that she wants her way like always no matter how it makes me feel.so i guess we'll see what happens. |
